Back at the children's hospital. Fuck. Jonathan's got pneumonia--last time he had that he nearly died. How much does someone have to suffer? If there's a god, I fucking hate him--cruel fucker. But I don't belive there's a god, so who cares? But I love my child, and I don't want to lose him, but I don't want him to suffer, either.
Fuck.
Fuck.
so here is what i have to say: fuck. that totally sucks. i am sorry that your child is sick and have empathy for you both.
i do not know why some of us have to face thinking that someone would be better off dead, but it happens.
when i read your post i thought of the boomtown rats song that said "there are no reasons".