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The one I am still in love with doesn't want me. We aren't even friends. I keep trying to get over him but he keeps creeping back into my head. Everything and everywhere reminds me of him.

The one who loves me, I loath He would give me everything I wanted. Be a great person to be with. But I am at the point where I can't stand him.

I need to get away. I need a change. This place is all I've known for 19 years. I need new sights and new faces. I am saying it here. I am ready to move. In true SGSeattle style I am ready to leave Seattle.

Don't get me wrong. I love this place that has been my home. I love being able to play in the city or the country. I love the guy outside of Nordstroms who has a fishing pole with a cup on the end with a sign that says "Need money for beer." I love that I have been to the first Starbucks and I walk through the rain and smile. I love so much here. But it's holding me back. I am ready to move on.

I won't leave for about a year. I need to save money and figure things out. I will come back too. I love my home. But change is needed and change is good. Every day passes and I itch to get away. Portland is the best place for me in my life right now. So that's where I am going.

I'm ready to get away.