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I really suck at this whole journal thing. I log onto the site all the time, but I fall victem to my sesame street induced ADD and spend vast chunks of time reading all of the incredibly interesting things that everyone else has to say. I don't know why but I find everyone and everything else to be more interesting then myself. I suppose that I'm in the minority. Most people are always eager to talk about themselves and their lives ad nauseum, but I have to remind myself to contribute to conversations and whatnot. If I don't think about it I just listen and observe and then people think I'm ignoring them. Just because I'm playing solitaire or spades while you're talking to me it doesn't mean I'm not paying attention to you. Really.
Megan says it's because I don't find myself interesting, but I don't really think that's the case at all. I am quite interested in myself and can spend hours lost in my own thoughts. But really it never occurs to me that other people don't know what is going on in my head. At least until they remind me. The end result is me having problems maintaining a conversation since I don't have a very strong instinct to contribute. So I suppose that's why I suck at journal writing. Also, I liked looking at my profile and seeing a comment to my journal. It made me feel special. I suppose if I contributed more and commented on other people's journals I would get more comments. I'll have to give it a shot sometime. Did I mention that that last comment was from Flux? A person I have never met but for some reason I am facinated by her comments. Not to mention her pictorial tribute to one of my top 5 all time literary works, Dune. Since I'm rambling on I might as well mention that I'm selling my house, moving back east, then going to Europe for 3 months and then the Caymens for Xmas. After that I suppose I'll find a job or go back to school. I'm open to suggestions.

Current reading material:
Six Pieces by Richard Feynman