onisean

i'm weak. i say i'm going to give up on the girl then i talk to her again and change my mind. i don't know what it is about her that keeps me trying. i mean she has alot of things i am looking for in a girl. she is funny, smart, artistic, like playing video games, pretty. i think it's i know i can't have her right now so it makes me want her more. stupid human trait. it's not that i don't have other options. i have "friends" that are fun to go out with from time to time. so i have no idea what i'm going to do. i mean i can always wait for 2 years till she is 21 and her dad will stop being psycho. thats what happen to her older sister. but two years is a long freaking time. it's hard cause for some strange reason she listerns to her dad and won't lie to him about where she is going. i guess thats another part of what draws me to her that she is a good girl. makes me want to corrupt heh jk . well just felt like whining oh and i hate work it sucks i really need to win the lotto this week (i know it's a hopeless dream) hope you guys are having a nice day and cya later