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Courtney...

why is it that i ceep on thinking about her. It wasnt but a few months ago that i had trouble remembering her name...now its hard to not revist her in my head, sometimes in my dreams.

I also realized why i can't be angry at her (at least not for what i have been angfry at her for) she didn't give me HPV, no one did, we both ended up being clean...it had nothign to go with either of us.

i should b furious with her for what she actually did. We were daiting. He may not have been whatever its is called when you call eachother your oun, not by a long shot. But needless to say, i lost my V card to her, and she just plain stoped talking to me, left me to hewr best freind, mine as well, to let me know that she was FUCKING GETTING MARIED.

whatever.

i've already hit artistic stagnation with my targum shooting. I honestly feel like the manegerial aspect of my job is destroying the artistic...

pluss i kinda want beny's job... lol, 80 Gs for 9 months a year and a college lengthed x-mass vacation... fucking sweet deal benny, who'd you have to fuck for that one ^_~