Early morning free write.
I'm in a really good mood, probably because I woke up early and can get a lot of stuff done today with two cups of coffee under my belt. I am just sitting here in my room, listening to NIN and writing my mom a belated birthday card.
I got a phone call last night from a kid who was in desperate need for help and wanted a way to get out of drugs. I'm supposed to meet him today and take him out to dinner and then a meeting. It made me feel like I had a purpose and that people are counting on me to stay sober. After this last slip, I am trying to figure out what I did wrong and what I can do better in order to keep from relapsing again. It seems like each time it gets worse. I found myself back in my room, shooting up until I woke up in rehab for the second time. I've been clean for almost a month now after a year and a half of sobriety. This was my worst relapse as of yet, but I am trying to grow from it.
School starts next week. I got a job up on campus as a nude model for the figure drawing classes. I am super stoked. I have three jobs now and that should help me rent a house with a couple friends by the end of first semester. It'll be good to get back in a routine and be busy.
Anyway, I'll write more later, lots of stuff to do!
Onida
I'm in a really good mood, probably because I woke up early and can get a lot of stuff done today with two cups of coffee under my belt. I am just sitting here in my room, listening to NIN and writing my mom a belated birthday card.
I got a phone call last night from a kid who was in desperate need for help and wanted a way to get out of drugs. I'm supposed to meet him today and take him out to dinner and then a meeting. It made me feel like I had a purpose and that people are counting on me to stay sober. After this last slip, I am trying to figure out what I did wrong and what I can do better in order to keep from relapsing again. It seems like each time it gets worse. I found myself back in my room, shooting up until I woke up in rehab for the second time. I've been clean for almost a month now after a year and a half of sobriety. This was my worst relapse as of yet, but I am trying to grow from it.
School starts next week. I got a job up on campus as a nude model for the figure drawing classes. I am super stoked. I have three jobs now and that should help me rent a house with a couple friends by the end of first semester. It'll be good to get back in a routine and be busy.
Anyway, I'll write more later, lots of stuff to do!
Onida
dreadthis:
hey... congrats on being clean for almost a month. Keep posting these blogs as i'm sure there are a lot of us that read them but only a few that take the time to comment.
suicideking11:
It's great that you're available to help someone who needs it, especially when you've been in that situation yourself. No one knows how to help better than someone who has been there.