onesecondmore

i've had a rough go of things lately. i dunno what it is, but i just am not digging life at the moment. nothing's wrong, really. it's just that things don't feel right. i'm not really sure how to explain it.

i've been calling out from work on what is becoming a routine basis. this isn't good, i know. i just don't want to deal with it sometimes. i'm only hurting myself in the long run. i'm most definitely not happy with things in the work arena, obviously. i just wish i was dealing with it in a more constructive way.

i have, however, been half-heartedly scanning the classifieds for something new. maybe a change of scenery will do me good? if not, just a throw-away job to get me by, and i'll go back to school. i've always regretted not finishing my degree.

i dunno. whatever i do, i definitely need to change my attitude toward life. i'm not doing so bad; i just want to do better. there's no way i can settle for where i am right now. it was good for a bit, but i want something different career-wise, something more fulfilling if not more lucrative.

fuck, i'm just talking out of my ass. i'm just tired and rambling. i'm tired of a lot of things.