onesecondmore

went to see the matrix. i guess there are worse ways to waste a couple hours.
i wasn't all that impressed.
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i've realized this week that i'm still not over this girl i used to date. it's a potentially bad situation since she and i are still really good friends and talk to each other daily and see each other all the time.

nothing's going to come out of it. we've taken the route we've taken. but to ignore the fact that i still love her this strongly would just fuck me up later with someone else, so i guess it's a good thing that i confront my feelings.

i just hope someone i can like differently, if not better, comes along soon. the question is, how does someone get a hold on me better than one of my best friends? if she and i hadn't been totally stupid toward one another, we'd probably still be together. but that's also the thinking keeping me where i am now- alone.

i feel completely lost.

am i fucked-up or what?