onesecondmore

so i quit smoking. again.

i've only been a daily smoker on and off for a little over 2 years, but i'm definitely a little edgy from just not having it around. i think the realization of how dependent on tobacco i became is enough to keep me from smoking.

aside from that, its stupid for me to keep the habit. i did quit for about 4 or 5 months after i was diagnosed with cardiomyopathy last summer. but then i used relationship troubles and stress at work as an excuse to start up again. the problem was not stressors in my environment. the problem is that i'm a junkie, on the most pussy of drugs, and im weak.

i'm going cold turkey. i did it before, i can do it again. i need to find a hobby or something.