this has been a pretty good week so far. hit it off pretty well with the girl i met last week, we've been hanging out quite a bit. i dunno where i stand on a new relationship yet, however. i'm pretty much in a mindset of just seeing where things lead.
i got the coolest present from my friend on tuesday. she doesn't always act...
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i got the coolest present from my friend on tuesday. she doesn't always act...
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adeline:
Glad to see you are doing good. I'm peachy, I think. I'm in Tampa for a little while visiting some friends...when I get back up to Jax beach we should meet...I only met navy guys so far and a few northerners who have relocated like moi. Navy guys are ummm...in a class all their own.
delilahb:
how's the new girl, sir sauve?
so i met my mom and the girl she works with for lunch today. it actually went pretty well, as well as it could i guess.
as well as i could gather from a little under an hour of meeting was that i think there's potential there. i was a bit taken aback that said person actually wanted to meet me(self-doubt rules!).
i finally understand...
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as well as i could gather from a little under an hour of meeting was that i think there's potential there. i was a bit taken aback that said person actually wanted to meet me(self-doubt rules!).
i finally understand...
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vivadeath:
Hope it goes well for you. I live by the "Dont expect too much, and you might not be let down." Good luck with her.
vivadeath:
Any progress on the lunch date? Hope all went well.
i've not much to say. life is pretty much a broken record this week, and i've just been going through the motions and keeping up appearances.
i agreed to meet the girl my mom wants to set me up with. i figure, what the hell?
there's no use waiting anymore for someone who doesn't want to come back to me, or at least doesn't want...
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i agreed to meet the girl my mom wants to set me up with. i figure, what the hell?
there's no use waiting anymore for someone who doesn't want to come back to me, or at least doesn't want...
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vivadeath:
There is nothing harder than trying to be friends with someone you once loved. You go through all the post-breakup motions of "lets still remain friends", but it seems like doing that is even harder to deal with than the breakup it's self. It really is hard to be around someone knowing that you were once consumed by your love for them and now it is all gone. It is even harder when they know it, but dont seem to care.
it's really cold outside. i can't sleep. i can't stop thinking about past events in my life i no longer have any control over. lost love. lost friends. lost hope. squandered potential.
i know it can't be normal to feel like there's no brighter future for me at age 28. there has to be some fight left in me, somewhere. some spark of defiance that...
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i know it can't be normal to feel like there's no brighter future for me at age 28. there has to be some fight left in me, somewhere. some spark of defiance that...
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vivadeath:
Women. Can't live with them, can't bury them in the back yard.
azrael_abyss:
YAY FOR JAX PEOPLE! I was just there for Thanksgiving.
another week down.
im thankful to have this weekend off. i need to do some holiday shopping though. i may wish i was back at the office after running the gauntlet shopping tomorrow.
my mom has been trying to set me up with someone she works with. i suppose it wouldn't hurt to meet her, but my mom has absolutely no idea what i'm looking...
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im thankful to have this weekend off. i need to do some holiday shopping though. i may wish i was back at the office after running the gauntlet shopping tomorrow.
my mom has been trying to set me up with someone she works with. i suppose it wouldn't hurt to meet her, but my mom has absolutely no idea what i'm looking...
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i haven't updated lately. i haven't really had much to say.
life seems to be mocking me lately. it's nothing new, yet it hurts every time.
i just hope that just once in this life i will know what it really feels like to be happy.
life seems to be mocking me lately. it's nothing new, yet it hurts every time.
i just hope that just once in this life i will know what it really feels like to be happy.
t3chmonkey:
No you don't want that. Such sharp contrast. May you wish to never know true pain or pleasure.
May you wish for moderation.
May you wish for moderation.
t3chmonkey:
the good thing about moderate goals is that they're pretty achievable.
Jesus, I'm really selling underachievement here. Good luck. Shouldn't take much.
Jesus, I'm really selling underachievement here. Good luck. Shouldn't take much.
i got a little bad news today.
my best friend's dad died this weekend and he's coming home for the funeral. it will be great to see him, but it's such a sad circumstance. his dad lived with him in california for a while before coming back here this summer, and i had been meaning to go visit for a long time. now it's too...
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my best friend's dad died this weekend and he's coming home for the funeral. it will be great to see him, but it's such a sad circumstance. his dad lived with him in california for a while before coming back here this summer, and i had been meaning to go visit for a long time. now it's too...
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delilahb:
all is well, for right now at least. I'm having one of those nights where I feel nothing but pity on myself. I'm such a loser. How are things there?
delilahb:
thanks for the b-day wishes. I really appreciated them!
I hope things are going well.
I hope things are going well.
another thanksgiving down.
here it is by the numbers-
5- minute intervals in which yet another member of my family asks where my ex is.
2- houses to visit. meaning 2 meals. i never want to eat again.
9- time in the morning i had to be at work today.
5- hours my friends spent in line at best buy trying to get what they...
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here it is by the numbers-
5- minute intervals in which yet another member of my family asks where my ex is.
2- houses to visit. meaning 2 meals. i never want to eat again.
9- time in the morning i had to be at work today.
5- hours my friends spent in line at best buy trying to get what they...
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stacie:
5 hours?!?!? 
what the hell was so hot at best buy?
I hate holiday shopping. Hate it! I prefer to do as much as possible on line
what the hell was so hot at best buy?
I hate holiday shopping. Hate it! I prefer to do as much as possible on line
stacie:
ooh.. okay.. that makes sense then. there was some commerical on the other nite for a store that was called the $199 computer or something very similar to that. I thought that was somewhat scary. I cant imagine a store dedicated to that would carry very good computers..
all i want is to just, for more than a fleeting moment here or there, be happy with who i am and the life that i have.
is that really too much to ask?
apparently so.
is that really too much to ask?
apparently so.
i went on a casino ship with my friends last night. i lost 50 bucks but still had a good time.
i woke up this morning to a toothache. i still have my wisdom teeth and once in a while one of them will get sore. i dunno why. for the greater part of today i've either been in pain or asleep.
this week is...
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i woke up this morning to a toothache. i still have my wisdom teeth and once in a while one of them will get sore. i dunno why. for the greater part of today i've either been in pain or asleep.
this week is...
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actuallynotyou:
Jesus I know the pain the wisdom teeth can be. I had mine out when i was 18 and those first couple days after sucked ass...
The lats time i went anywhere and gambled I lost 50 bucks too. I would have lost a shitload more but I put all my money on red in roulette on the my way out and hit it to break back to close to even. If i hadn't hit that I would have been down 200.
Good luck man.
The lats time i went anywhere and gambled I lost 50 bucks too. I would have lost a shitload more but I put all my money on red in roulette on the my way out and hit it to break back to close to even. If i hadn't hit that I would have been down 200.
Good luck man.
"every day i wander in negative disposition
as i'm bombarded by superlatives
realizing very well that i am not alone
introverted i look to tomorrow for salvation
but i'm thinking altruistically
and a wave of overwhelming doubt
turns me to stone."
as i'm bombarded by superlatives
realizing very well that i am not alone
introverted i look to tomorrow for salvation
but i'm thinking altruistically
and a wave of overwhelming doubt
turns me to stone."
i really want to get a new tattoo today, but i just don't feel like doing anything.
i'm just sitting here, with the dog, vegetating in front of the tv.
i should be doing laundry.
i should be doing a lot of things.
time to get up and get motivated, do something with my day.
i'm just sitting here, with the dog, vegetating in front of the tv.
i should be doing laundry.
i should be doing a lot of things.
time to get up and get motivated, do something with my day.
finch:
any day is a good day to get a tattoo, no matter how you feel 
no....i actually know how you feel. i've been there before. feel better, kay? *hug*
no....i actually know how you feel. i've been there before. feel better, kay? *hug*
stacie:
the friend request thing really threw me yesterday when i first saw it.
Situation fixed! we're now friends
Situation fixed! we're now friends