onesecondmore

small update for anyone who likes to read, point, and laugh...

praise at work is a cancer. since getting some well-deserved pats on the back my output has decreased dramatically. sales jobs suck most of the time.

overtime is slowly tapering off. i'm actually gonna miss it, as i've used the extra money to whittle away 4k of my overall debt. this is but a...
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the parade of ex-girlfriends making special guest appearances in my life continues this week. another one calls me up.

i'm not really bitter about it, i'd much rather have things on terms as good as they are, but it's just weird.

maybe i'm simplistic, but i just have a hard time getting my head around the idea of them not wanting to be with me...
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this has been a much less than wonderful weekend for me. as if johnny cash dying wasn't a downer enough, i wake up yesterday with my sinuses raging. i felt like someone hit me in the face.

consequently, i have to stay in bed and miss the SGFL meet-up. aside from feeling like shit, i get to look like a total flake.

today i have...
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it's almost as if life is mocking me.

i'm sick.

i'm going back to sleep.

cash is gone.

"at my door the leaves are falling.
the cold wild wind will come.
sweethearts walk by together.
and i still miss someone."

godspeed.

nothing frustrates me more: i make a casual, flippant, obviously tongue-in-cheek comment to a friend, something that is just so over the top and out of character for me that it must be a joke, and she gets pissed.

it wasn't even as mean as any teasing she's ever given me.

all i said was that since i hadn't heard from her in a week,...
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as much as i enjoy doing nothing all day, for some reason i feel guilty when i spend the day that way.

how fucked up am i?

wait. don't answer that...

football season is here...

and me, without a football widow...

*sigh*

i always complain about how much overtime i get stuck with until i get paid.

it really does get old after a while, however.

as it is, my social life needs a bout of cpr and a defibrillator. i spend night after night wanting to go out and do something, anything.

i despise being a slave to a paycheck. hopefully all the extra work i'm...
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my niece is 8 months old today. i swear this kid is so cute it should be illegal.

i ran into my brother and his wife at the store today. i'm glad he turned out to be the procreator in the family and not i. but sometimes when i hang out with them and the kid i get that twinge that it would be cool...
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all of sudden, i feel like cleaning house with my life.

i want new friends(edit: in addition to my existing ones). new job. new apartment. new romantic interests.

i'm really less than happy with how things stand right now and don't see any real way to change them without total upheaval and financial chaos.

i suppose i could start small and just go out and...
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i just returned from a long drive. when things start getting to me or i need to think, i like to head out on a loop that runs up the coast to amelia island, through fernandina beach and then circles back home. it's a good 90-minute round trip. lots of time to clear one's mind.

it isn't so much scenic, being at night and all,...
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