oneirogen

her: Bully
her: GoGo
and her: Nemesis

I have a lot to say but not the time or energy to say it. So I will try to get out what I can.
It has been snowing since about 0100 last night. It is going to be a rough winter. I arrived here 2 years ago at this time and it was snowing and it was a brutal winter. Supposed to get to 16 tonight and keep snowing. Yikes and away.

The Valium isn't numbing me the way I want it to. Xanax isn't helping either. Lifting isn't helping and I can't ride. Too much anger right now.
There are times when the weight of the world and what goes on just eats me alive, this is one of those times.

The world makes me sick. US foreign policy makes me sick. What I am making money doing and supporting makes me sick. What I see in our future makes me sick. That anger is flowing because of it.
Currently almost done reading: How America Gets Away With Murder: Illegal Wars, Collateral Damage and Crimes Against Humanity by Michael Mandel. It is really dry at times but just makes me want to punch the world.

I am almost done with school. 16 days left. About time. Then it is on to the next chapter. I am getting way to restless and dissatisfied and need to move on. Badly.

Listening to a lot of Tool and Down lately, not sure why.
I need to go, I am all tapped out.