Recently I was talking to a girl for the first time in years and I realized that she is the first person to make me smile every time I see her, without forcing it, for as long as I can remember. I've been single and happy as could be and after awhile I started to realize that people aren't truly happy when they're alone; we're meant to be in relationships. We are meant to find someone that makes us happy and until we find that person, whoever and wherever she or he may be, we will never honestly be happy.
The unfortunate part of this story is that I didn't realize all of this until I fell too hard for her and she still needed alone time after her last relationship because it was such a wreck. Now I'm just the nice guy sitting here in last place, alone again...
I'm a positive person, as much as I can be with my depression, so I know I'll pull through and eventually find the right one for me. Until then, I guess I'm just going to set my life speed back to cruise control and just do what I can to fill the void.
The unfortunate part of this story is that I didn't realize all of this until I fell too hard for her and she still needed alone time after her last relationship because it was such a wreck. Now I'm just the nice guy sitting here in last place, alone again...
I'm a positive person, as much as I can be with my depression, so I know I'll pull through and eventually find the right one for me. Until then, I guess I'm just going to set my life speed back to cruise control and just do what I can to fill the void.
arien:
I don't know what your belief system is like, but maybe this was just meant to make you realize there is more to fight for in the world. Maybe it was meant to teach you to keep your eyes open for the future and appreciate what you have and what could be.
onedaylikethis:
I'm not anti-religious but I just haven't found anything that fits me yet. I'm fairly agnostic, leaning towards athiest so I don't think anything happens for a reason. That doesn't mean that I don't agree though, I think everything negative in life is just a test for you to prove to yourself that you can overcome anything. This, for example, is something I've been dealing with and it's just been getting harder for me but I push through and refuse to give up. Just makes me stronger as a person but unfortunately makes me a little bitter towards relationships and kind of just stomps on my trust and hopes for the future.