Summer days have me filled with thoughts only of the future.
What will I be doing then, what should I be doing when I get there? How will things bring me to where I want to BE?
Summer is a limbo. A 4 month pit stop. Yet the only thing that is being replenished is my laziness. A lack of Creativity, Inspiration; no stimulus for me to react to.
Plain Jane and Even Steven sitting down and watching TV togeather.
The days where my body screams for outs but the only thing that's changing is what channel i'm watching.
These are the days where I evaluate all my weak points. What I should have said that I didn't say? Why did that happen? Who are the people I know?
Why do I like the people that I like?
Friends.
Schoolwork.
The 7 aspects of my life that will lead to me improving as a person.
Photography
Reading
Writing
Eating Healthy
Running
Friends
Girlfriends.
I've never had a girlfriend. Why? Who am I and how do people see me??? All the disgusting and terrible people you know, the ones that you dread having to being around, How is it that they are in relationships while I'm not? What lessons have I missed?
How can I relate to human beings if I haven't experienced that?
These are the questions that don't have answers.
Because the only thing that keeps my mind going is thinking about myself.
What will I be doing then, what should I be doing when I get there? How will things bring me to where I want to BE?
Summer is a limbo. A 4 month pit stop. Yet the only thing that is being replenished is my laziness. A lack of Creativity, Inspiration; no stimulus for me to react to.
Plain Jane and Even Steven sitting down and watching TV togeather.
The days where my body screams for outs but the only thing that's changing is what channel i'm watching.
These are the days where I evaluate all my weak points. What I should have said that I didn't say? Why did that happen? Who are the people I know?
Why do I like the people that I like?
Friends.
Schoolwork.
The 7 aspects of my life that will lead to me improving as a person.
Photography
Reading
Writing
Eating Healthy
Running
Friends
Girlfriends.
I've never had a girlfriend. Why? Who am I and how do people see me??? All the disgusting and terrible people you know, the ones that you dread having to being around, How is it that they are in relationships while I'm not? What lessons have I missed?
How can I relate to human beings if I haven't experienced that?
These are the questions that don't have answers.
Because the only thing that keeps my mind going is thinking about myself.
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How's this for randomness: I didn't drink a drop of pop yesterday and i love love love my new old phone.
have a good one man.....................
Hey, I'd be happy to kick your ass and make you do something artistic...so long as I get to see it when you're done. Seriously! Yea, I am back in my parent's house for the summer and feeling seriously lazy, but I'm getting back on track today.
PS I made a kick ass photogram of that water pistol you mailed me. I'll scan it soon and post it for ya.