Oh man, well in case you're wondering, I'm drunk.
I ended up going over to the bar tonight with a couple of friends, it was a pretty good time.
It's funny how your standards along with the girls decrease along with the alcohol. But in the same sentence, as the girls standards lower, they're not low enough to hit a guy like me.
I had a really good time. But the whole while I was thinking "Man, No girl wants me!" you know how bad that is? I mean a drunken mind is something that is supposed to be a simplify your brain and let the little shit go. I was only thinking about two things, nothing, and how girls hate me and how i'm a fat slob, which probably points that I have a problem psychologically. I mean, I wish that I was someone who was really self confident, but it's just not in me for the love of god. I wish it was, i honestly do.
Even still, drinking has a way of letting your inhibitions go. Towards the end I met this girl Shante, she was short and had big tits (which is the idea of my pefect girl) i was resting my leg into the inside of hers, but she still didn't notice i guess. I mean, she definitely realized that I was into her (at one point I said, "I don't know if this sounds bad or anything, but i think you're beautiful") and she even gave me her number. But when I asked for a goodbye kiss when i had to go, she said "Naw I'm sorry baby" and she gave me a hug. I suppose thats the good thing, but in my insecure mind, that one thread of rejection could come to mean that she is completely uniterested in me. I dunno.
I was thinking of giving her "I'm really really sorry how I acted the other night, but if you're interested I was wondering if you want to hang out tonight."
I dunno, It's pretty bad when you want to hang out with someone but you don't know what the hell to do with them. I dunno, go for a drive ect.
If you people have any suggestions, let me know.
Meanwhile, I'm going to willow in my self-pity, which i hate.
If any of you are into guys that have self-loathing afflictions and live in the New England area, I'm taking applications
I ended up going over to the bar tonight with a couple of friends, it was a pretty good time.
It's funny how your standards along with the girls decrease along with the alcohol. But in the same sentence, as the girls standards lower, they're not low enough to hit a guy like me.
I had a really good time. But the whole while I was thinking "Man, No girl wants me!" you know how bad that is? I mean a drunken mind is something that is supposed to be a simplify your brain and let the little shit go. I was only thinking about two things, nothing, and how girls hate me and how i'm a fat slob, which probably points that I have a problem psychologically. I mean, I wish that I was someone who was really self confident, but it's just not in me for the love of god. I wish it was, i honestly do.
Even still, drinking has a way of letting your inhibitions go. Towards the end I met this girl Shante, she was short and had big tits (which is the idea of my pefect girl) i was resting my leg into the inside of hers, but she still didn't notice i guess. I mean, she definitely realized that I was into her (at one point I said, "I don't know if this sounds bad or anything, but i think you're beautiful") and she even gave me her number. But when I asked for a goodbye kiss when i had to go, she said "Naw I'm sorry baby" and she gave me a hug. I suppose thats the good thing, but in my insecure mind, that one thread of rejection could come to mean that she is completely uniterested in me. I dunno.
I was thinking of giving her "I'm really really sorry how I acted the other night, but if you're interested I was wondering if you want to hang out tonight."
I dunno, It's pretty bad when you want to hang out with someone but you don't know what the hell to do with them. I dunno, go for a drive ect.
If you people have any suggestions, let me know.
Meanwhile, I'm going to willow in my self-pity, which i hate.
If any of you are into guys that have self-loathing afflictions and live in the New England area, I'm taking applications
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Hey, you're one up on me. When I get that drunk I don't even have the sober voice saying "don't do it!" Thankfully I'm pretty quiet and I'm a girl so I can get away with being pretty damn sleazy.
-Kay