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EMO EXTREMO

so to fill myself in on what's going on for the record in the last couple of weeks. I have been going through a period of testing on many different fronts....

mainly girl situation(s). I've been analayzing relationships for a long time now and it is a fine line to walk between friendship and relationship or dating or being physical or whatever. Because with a friend there usually always is some physical attraction that brings you together but of course there is a mental, emo attraction how you relate to each and others through similiar life experiences yada yada yada...but what is the difference?

Of course the difference would have something to do with following through and making that physical connection, which would distinguish the relationship more.....

I just was thinking about a situation and a Tom Petty Song,

You think you're gonna take her away
With your money and your cocaine
Keep thinkin' that mind is gonna change
But I know everything is okay

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of loving
But she don't need you

You want me to think that I'm being used
You want her to think it's over
You can't see it doesn't matter what you do
Buddy, you don't even know her

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of loving
But she don't need you

People make connections using drugs that make the connection all the more stronger. I think it is difficult to seperate love into subcategories, but it is important to know in what way you love people so you do not end up fucking everyone over including yourself in the end.

I just got all smitten with somebody and she definetly has expressed interest in me, but nothing is quaranteed that it might work out or not. This feels like the Blind kinda of love which is usually the best kind and most dangerous, because you end up getting so caught up in this thing that you forget about time, space and reality.

I believe i figured it out, figured it out, figured it out...

hmmm i ended up getting kinda of set up last night going to karokee and it ended up this one girl was there an nobody else showed up. It was good though but i expressed my honest feelings that my emotions where up in the air and i NEEDED TO FIGURE THiNGS OUT to be fair to myself, her and anyone else so i wouldn't do anything half assed.

Years and years ago this happened in high school i told this girl who had apparently a big crush on me that i was persueing someone else and she cried a river over it.

Do i sound like an asshole cuz i make it sound like i have girls crawling all over me? Well that is far from the case, sure i meet a lot of people working at the bar, but the more people i meet the more i realize the little amount of people i connect, which does not happen that often.

It's just hard to know how you connect with people sometimes and the line that is blurred between friendship and relationship. It seems like a very VERY fine line to walk. The more you seem to geniuenly love people, the more hot water you seem to get into because being nice and genuienly interested in people is too bizarre of a thing to live out now a days without people thinking you want to be with them.

Lately, i have been finding that i a willing to be in a committed relationship, at least i'm warming up to the idea. Which is something i haven't really considered for more then 2 years. Anyways i hope things work themselves out for a change, that would be nice....yes i know i am thinking contradiction and it makes no sense at all.