Okay..Let's update..
The only reason I wish I could be much skinnier is because I could wear whatever I want without looking like a slut. It's true! I saw this little asian girl the other day wearing knee high boots and booty shorts and it looked totally fine. She still looked wholesome and completely non-sexual. I wear a knee length skirt however, and I look like a total slut. It's the curves I tell you, the curves!
Also, to add to my selection of grannies I would worship I present Tilda Swinton. ( Constantine, Narnia, Adaptations). This new addition clearly demonstrats my hatred of traditional beauty. I guess I like complexity in a woman's face. I like faces that are completely wrong in the sense that they are almost ugly but have a certain charm to them that makes them seem unearthly. I can understand the beauty of Jessica Alba but it just bores me to tears to look at her.
Oh, and I got an account on Onmodelplace.com and my first photographer was really creepy. He really had a crazy sociopathic vibe to him and I was really uncomfortable. I'm glad I brought someone with me or I fear something horrible might have ensued. About 5 pictures are lovely as hell, but I couldn't masturbate for a week because I was disgusted with sex and how others perceive my body... So unclean..
That's it.
The only reason I wish I could be much skinnier is because I could wear whatever I want without looking like a slut. It's true! I saw this little asian girl the other day wearing knee high boots and booty shorts and it looked totally fine. She still looked wholesome and completely non-sexual. I wear a knee length skirt however, and I look like a total slut. It's the curves I tell you, the curves!
Also, to add to my selection of grannies I would worship I present Tilda Swinton. ( Constantine, Narnia, Adaptations). This new addition clearly demonstrats my hatred of traditional beauty. I guess I like complexity in a woman's face. I like faces that are completely wrong in the sense that they are almost ugly but have a certain charm to them that makes them seem unearthly. I can understand the beauty of Jessica Alba but it just bores me to tears to look at her.
Oh, and I got an account on Onmodelplace.com and my first photographer was really creepy. He really had a crazy sociopathic vibe to him and I was really uncomfortable. I'm glad I brought someone with me or I fear something horrible might have ensued. About 5 pictures are lovely as hell, but I couldn't masturbate for a week because I was disgusted with sex and how others perceive my body... So unclean..
That's it.
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Honestly, I'm sure you look amazing, and I'm sure plenty of people here would agree, regardless of whether your set was accepted or not. Sets aren't rejected simply because they don't like the way you look.
Yes, I meant the many people on SG who are good at photography, not just the staff photographers. You can use anyone you want, not just the few on staff. And a lot of them are quite good. You can find those with good references (so at least you can weed out any weirdos) in the SG Hopefuls group.
I spend way too much time feeling shame about my body, don't do the same. But I understand all about being insecure about your own appearance. And don't worry if you're babbling, I don't mind.
take care.