omeganightmare

hmmpppffttt...I keep getting these recurring sights and thoughts.

I keep seeing the old guy that died a few shifts ago, I closed his eyes for him so his family didn't have to see that dead stare. I can't seem to get that out of my mind

I would really like to stop by the FD down the street from me in Vallejo. I'm not sure if its the right one or not but I think its a start. Or maybe find a way to look at old news papers... Anywho I would like to see if there is anyone that is still in the FD/EMS system that would have been at our accident. I'm guessing they would be chiefs and captains by now. Maybe they would remember and see what has become of the little boy and make them happy. The person they saved is now paying back the favor to other strangers in need. Maybe that would erase all the bullshit they have to deal with and make it all worth it for them again.

I kinka feel like I should be staying in Vallejo for awhile...I think its cause dad is just down the street. I've never been this close to his grave. After he died we moved away. Now that i'm here I feel like I would be doing something wrong

We don't scare as easy as we used to...Is it the violent movies and music that does it?....or is it the violence and horrible things we see in everyday when we walk out the door?