ombraboxer

so he was on today, and it killed me. He's happy. I want him to be happy, I do. But I wish it was with me, And I can tell that there is no chance of that ever happening. That also kills me, that kills me the most. And then he fought, and I broke down, and now I think he's mad at me..I said some horrible things. but really, he comes in to my life, hurts me, leaves my life for a while and then comes back! How am I supposed to react?
anyways..we're friends...I think that hurts me just about as much as him not wanting to be with me