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I never realized until today how much a smell can effect a person. I was serving one of my customers Earl Grey tea today, and happened to smell it as I was giving it to them. It took me back to when I was 16 and staying at my second cousins place in Saskatoon. My hunter green room with stucco spots covering the walls, giving...
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I spend the first 10 mins looking through my drawers, Taking everything out, folding it all again and putting it all back. Next 10 mins looking in my closet. Then I hear a little voice on the other side of my door. "Tiiifffffff I accidentally..."
me-" You took my clothes again didn't you!" "
Ash-"I didn't have anything to wear"
me-don't take my stuff with...
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Every night I wake up in the middle of my sleep freezing cold, every single night. So my mother suggested she buys me a new duvet and maybe it will keep me warmer. We live really close to a mall so we just walk there. On the way my mother starts talking about my future something she only did once when we found out she...
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Yesterday was my third day without a smoke, today would be my 4 day in a row...if I hadn't had one last night. But I was drunk and at showgirls, how could I not have one? But that doesn't mean I'm going to start smoking again, last night was just a drunken mistake.

Last night I ended up going over to the new cooks place...
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Well that was a horrible interview. First my fucking cab took me to the wrong place, and of course I hadn't ever been there so I didn't know he was taking me to the wrong place. I ended up being 10 mins late. I am never ever late. Then I answered all the questions wrong, and arg...so ya, I don't think I got the job....
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I have gone two days(including today) without one smoke. Yesterday was so hard, at work I mostly just sat in the back crying, but I got through it. Now the cute cook acts weird around me, damn.

Last night I got a call from a new country club in town asking me to come in for an interview. Which I actually should be getting ready...
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so I think you call what I did today a big fall right on my face. It ended up being a horrible attempt to quit. Last night I got no sleep, one of the side effects of it is trouble sleeping, another? vivid dreams. So when I was able to fall asleep I was only woken up a little while later by those stupid dreams....
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Today is day one if my new nonsmoking life.
of course, I've had three today...but those three are my last three, I swear. And I don't look at those three as failing, I look at those three as "slips". And slips are ok, as long as you don't let it turn into a fall. Thats what the little book says that came with my NicoDerm...
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