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I'm still here.
I made a livejournal for my new old hamster. Go friend him.
I need to make some major life decisions.
I'm not happy. In Chicago. In my job. In my friends.
Chicago is cold and superficial.
My job is stressful, unchallenging, and a career dead-end.
My friends are selfish people who repeatedly betray me. Yes, shame on me, for sticking around...
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I made a livejournal for my new old hamster. Go friend him.
I need to make some major life decisions.
I'm not happy. In Chicago. In my job. In my friends.
Chicago is cold and superficial.
My job is stressful, unchallenging, and a career dead-end.
My friends are selfish people who repeatedly betray me. Yes, shame on me, for sticking around...
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infinity:
It's a tough choice for you to have to make, since as you said it really will make a big difference. I've recently seen that choice can really become your worst enemy as it forces you to really pick one out of several all great options.
Though you really could end up changing direction later down the road should you change your mind. This happens more than you'd think...
Though you really could end up changing direction later down the road should you change your mind. This happens more than you'd think...
kay:
Come to Antarctica already. Jeeze.
~cheers
~cheers
Ok. I need to stop taking people's shit.
Now.
Step one? Stop entertaining it. At all. I took the first step. I blocked her on AIM. And I will do on every other means she uses to contact me. If she can't figure out what she did wrong in outright viciously hurting me, and lying through her teeth when I broke down for a heart-to-heart?...
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Now.
Step one? Stop entertaining it. At all. I took the first step. I blocked her on AIM. And I will do on every other means she uses to contact me. If she can't figure out what she did wrong in outright viciously hurting me, and lying through her teeth when I broke down for a heart-to-heart?...
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infinity:
It's really hard to get people out of your life, but it's really necessary here and you're doing the right thing - you really shouldn't be taking that kind of abuse anymore.
aaronsrod:
hey there its been awhile, just dropped by to say hi.
I love the pics and your mermaid set
I love the pics and your mermaid set
Sorry for my rant recently.
A lot has happened since then, really pointing out how much I depend on him. Sometimes he hurts me. But most of the time he supports me. So I hope nothing ever really pushes us apart.
I've had a hard week.
I've lost one of my closest friends, and I so badly want her back in my life, but she...
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A lot has happened since then, really pointing out how much I depend on him. Sometimes he hurts me. But most of the time he supports me. So I hope nothing ever really pushes us apart.
I've had a hard week.
I've lost one of my closest friends, and I so badly want her back in my life, but she...
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corvus_pdx:
Huggles
salome:
Yours. Just tell her that you know she's going through a terrible time right now and you want to help, but you can't take the abuse from her. Tell her that when she's ready to treat you like a friend again, you'll be ready to be a friend again.
Apologies in advance for this rant, but it's really the only place I can rant away from people who are indirectly involved.
My boyfriend of almost three years is a recovering asshole.
Which is to say that he spent the first year of our relationship cheating on me, and for some reason I stayed with him. He's grown up a lot, and is generally really...
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My boyfriend of almost three years is a recovering asshole.
Which is to say that he spent the first year of our relationship cheating on me, and for some reason I stayed with him. He's grown up a lot, and is generally really...
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lostlucy:
Absolutely have to agree with everything said here, and yet i know how hard it is to move on. WHY are human animals so inclined to follow their reptilian brains??
Well... i would express myself, ask him what he wants, and tell him you need to think abt what you are going to do. try to busy yourself and think abt how you'd get along without him b4 you make a decision. try it on and see. meanwhile, if you begin to see you can do without him just fine, you'll feel liberated and able to make a decision if that is what you want. AND, sadly, being cold and distant is what will make him move toward you, tho i am not saying play a game of silent treatment just to get him or get him back. Really, you do, and we all do, deserve better!
Well... i would express myself, ask him what he wants, and tell him you need to think abt what you are going to do. try to busy yourself and think abt how you'd get along without him b4 you make a decision. try it on and see. meanwhile, if you begin to see you can do without him just fine, you'll feel liberated and able to make a decision if that is what you want. AND, sadly, being cold and distant is what will make him move toward you, tho i am not saying play a game of silent treatment just to get him or get him back. Really, you do, and we all do, deserve better!
ninjaprodigy:
You're not the bad guy at all.
And you definitely deserve better.
And you definitely deserve better.
Thanks for the birthday wishes 
Anyone in Chicago should come see the musical SideShow at Theatre on the Lake - This week only!
It's a show I was involved in last year - really great production. The leading ladies got a Jeff for best actress. I love the music.
Anyone in Chicago should come see the musical SideShow at Theatre on the Lake - This week only!
It's a show I was involved in last year - really great production. The leading ladies got a Jeff for best actress. I love the music.
salome:
Thank YOU for lending/giving me your sweater! The results are here. Bear in mind that this an audition rather than a polished performance:
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ninjaprodigy:
Some nice work.
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
apexxx:
oh damn i forgot we have the same birthday!
Happy belated!
Happy belated!
I have been bad about posting, I know. Been in kind of a weird place, mentally and emotionally.
I was in a shitty relationship at the beginning of the year. I was suicidal; unhealthy as it is, suicide fantasies were my coping mechanism. They were my happy place.
Months after the relationship ended, I'm feeling back to myself.....but still, anytime I feel upset or out...
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I was in a shitty relationship at the beginning of the year. I was suicidal; unhealthy as it is, suicide fantasies were my coping mechanism. They were my happy place.
Months after the relationship ended, I'm feeling back to myself.....but still, anytime I feel upset or out...
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hysanadu:
Man. 
Sorry to hear you're going through this.
The one positive I can say is that you know the people who do believe you are good and caring friends, so definitely look to them for support when you start feeling suicidal....even if they are not, as was said before, part of that social circle.
Maybe it's time to look outside that social circle? I'm bad at advice for this, because my response when it happened to me, was to just wall myself up and shut everyone out.
Not really a great move on my part, so I wouldn't suggest it for anyone else.
Sorry to hear you're going through this.
The one positive I can say is that you know the people who do believe you are good and caring friends, so definitely look to them for support when you start feeling suicidal....even if they are not, as was said before, part of that social circle.
Maybe it's time to look outside that social circle? I'm bad at advice for this, because my response when it happened to me, was to just wall myself up and shut everyone out.
Not really a great move on my part, so I wouldn't suggest it for anyone else.
salome:
How was your birthday? I wish I could have made it. And who was it who sent me the email inviting me to the party? I assumed it was you -- I had a long conversation with the owner of that email address about the party -- but I guess it wasn't you. 
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theinsomniac:
Nice work!
salome:
I think you can get poles custom made to fit your particular ceiling ...
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salome:
Yep, everyone agrees: your portrait of me in the church is my best picture ever. 
thedvsmonkey:
Yes, but I know for sure she wasn't expecting it even remotely any time soon!
I follow your photography on flickr religiously. if you don't mind my continued worship / stalking, I'm requesting your "friendship."