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Friday Sep 07, 2007

Sep 7, 2007
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I'm still here.

I made a livejournal for my new old hamster. Go friend him.

I need to make some major life decisions.

I'm not happy. In Chicago. In my job. In my friends.

Chicago is cold and superficial.

My job is stressful, unchallenging, and a career dead-end.

My friends are selfish people who repeatedly betray me. Yes, shame on me, for sticking around long enough for them to hurt me more than once.

Well I'm tired of whining and not acting to make a positive change. So I want to make a change, make a difference, make things better. The problem is I'm overwhelmed by possibilities.

My interests are:

1) writing musicals (music and lyrics, think Sondheim); this is what I went to undergrad for, and I'm decent, though not a genius. I want to see my plays on Broadway.

2) photography - human, portraiture, nude. If you haven't seen my flickr stream, you should go - I update daily. I'm decent, and maybe if I actually focused on it or studied it, I could be very good.

3) graphic and web design - I have a natural knack, but no practical skill, and my html is a holdover from 1994. No, really.

So I'm struggling to pick between three interests which take me in pretty different directions.

And on top of that there's the question of grad school. I want to go to school, but can I afford it? My parents can't contribute, and I'm looking at such artsy pursuits that I don't foresee grants being possible. And then what to study?

For musical theatre I could study music (I need to rub up on theory - this is definitely my weak spot), theatre (probably too fluffy), or go into a dedicated writing musicals program, of which there are two....both competitive as hell to get into.

For photography I could do real school, like I want, or trade classes....or maybe look for overseas programs.

Or for graphic design I could go to a design college and hope they give me up to date skills and pump me out into a career.

I don't want to stay in the US. I want to leave. A friend pointed out that pursuing photography sounds more appropriate to the lifestyle I want, of travel and vagabondism. I guess graphic design is also more mobile. Musical theatre pretty much sends you to NY....at least until I'm known enough to write from anywhere.

So I'm facing these choices - and the first move I make will propel me down a very definitive path. That scares me.

I'm paralyzed.
infinity:
It's a tough choice for you to have to make, since as you said it really will make a big difference. I've recently seen that choice can really become your worst enemy as it forces you to really pick one out of several all great options.


Though you really could end up changing direction later down the road should you change your mind. This happens more than you'd think...
Sep 7, 2007
kay:
Come to Antarctica already. Jeeze.

~cheers
Sep 25, 2007

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