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Random tidbits:

I've been considering quitting my job. It's a great company, in my narrow field, but I am overstressed and understimulated.

It is just me and my boss, and no other employees. My boss is away often. When he is gone, I feel lonely, when he is around, I feel crowded and stifled. To make matters worse, during a recent computer crisis that rendered me unable to get my work done, my boss called me a liar. Twice.

I'm torn about whether I should look for something new - I really believe in what the company stands for....but the work environment is terrible. ....And I worry that if I don't leave first, I might find myself suddenly relieved of the job.


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This IT guy who we outsource for computer problems I can't handle came to work today. I hate him. Last time he came in, he was talking to my boss in the other room and I overheard "You know what Olsen does when you're away? She plays computer games." .....a pregnant silence ensued. Then the IT guy: "I was just kidding. hahahahahahaha."

two things:
1) You don't tell someone's boss that she's been fucking around on the job. It isn't ethical and it isn't funny. That could have gotten me fired.
2) I don't even like games. My boss knows that. ....I thought.... However, in light of his recent distrust I'm starting to think that IT Guy's little joke actually settled into Boss's mind as fact. Great.

Well today, what special tidbits did the IT guy have for me?

"Pigs are very smart. They're great animals. Smarter than monkeys. I think I'd rather have sex with a sheep or a goat than a monkey."

......BJEH????????

What. The. Fuck.

The only response I could come up with was: ".....well.... ....some people have sex with dolphins...."


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.....My other boss called in today. He asked "How are you?"

I really hate that question. Does anyone ever actually want to hear how you are? "Well I'm crazed and suicidal, how about yourself?"

.....After pausing long enough to consider saying things have been rough, I said what I was expected to say. "I'm okay."

"No you're not."

"You can tell?"

....And we had a long discussion about my dad. I went to Portland last weekend to help my parents house-hunt. In person my father is much less the clear, coherent thinker he seems to be on the phone. He had another seizure while I was in Portland. This is a blessing in disguise - it means he has to stop asking to drive for another 6 months. The man is crumbling like an old wall.

My Boss was very kind and attentive.....and urged me to make sure I do and say everything I would regret not having a chance to do or say.

....The problem is that the one thing I know I'll regret is if my kids never get to know my dad. And kids aren't even on the horizon yet. Starting a family is pretty much the one regret that you just can't decide to tackle in a hurry.