oliviablack

Ugh. I hate when I get to that helpless point.

I'm sorry to down you all with my woas but hm.

It sucks trying to find a job.

I start school this tuesday and am horrified.

I'm so afraid that I will make an idiot of myself.

I have always had a passion for cosmetology but understand there are those that learn it

and those that are naturals at it.

I'm so afraid that I will just be some mundane hair dresser.

I don't know and don't believe that it is actually a natural passion, just something I must learn.

I'm doing horribly at my modeling I'm honestly thinking about just giving up on that.

I used to want it so bad but now I have just lost a lot of hope in most things.

I was still really trying when my last three sets went up and they all bombed.

Um that says a lot about how people see me.

Hmm.

Whatever.

I'm always the positive person,

but I'm losing so much of myself and my life.

More than I want to indulge to you all.

I'm feeling like such a failure lately.

This sucks.

But I do have a semi cool picture from one night at Dorm Days at the Hard Rock