Monday Jun 18, 2012

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I'm about to be 34, but I don't feel a day over 22.

It's funny that all the things that I used to very passionately care about have all been stripped away in the last year and a half. What's left strangely resembles me at 22. Before all the change that eventually turned out to be caked-on makeup obscuring a face that's now scrubbed bare. You pile it on but it's just a faade, and eventually it slips away.

A decade of change and I'm back to square one. Just me, my bad attitude, and the future of my making.

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geo35:
Once you successfully navigate through that mid-life contemplation between 30-40, you'll find yourself just settling in with that scrubbed-bare face you mentioned. I'll be 65 in three weeks. But spiritually/emotionally/intellectually/psychologically/whatever, I've been calmly floating around between 25 and 35 for 30 years now. Yesterday, my knees felt 45, today they feel 70. I still feel like "me," but it's a version of "me" that needs a nap now & then.

Enjoy the ride.
xsntt:
I find you incredibly inspiring. I wish somehow I could touch you with my words here, but I know it is a vain hope. We are approximately the same age though, and live in close to the same area. I am going through much the same changes in my life. It feels nice to be laid bare when you have confidence you are in charge of it!

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