It's done. A done deal.
I biked to work in the rain at 5:30 am. I got drenched, changed into dry scrubs and drew a number of patients in the emergency department and epileptic floor. I was humbled when I drew a familiar drunk I see many, many times on the "Ave". I used to think he was a goner. He always looked like he was out of his mind and a bit of vegetable. And when I met him today, sober and hydrated for a change, he actually looked better than I ever imagined. This poor guy is a homeless drunk and he was one of my nicest patients. I found new respect for him. ugh. who am i to judge anyone?
So, I biked to my second job afterwards and put in a good shift. I had the shakes pretty bad and knew it was becasue I've been drinking too much. But, I came home and downed a few beers before going on a blind date. fucking pathetic. okay. maybe i'm being too harsh on myself, but that's moi.
The date was a bummer. She wasn't all that cheerful and trying to get conversation going was like pulling teeth. Dating sucks. It was just lame all around. We had happy hour appetizers and a couple of drinks then I biked home and napped for a couple of hours.
I watched the first 4 episodes of The Sopranos and the first two of Twin Peaks. Damn! I haven't seen the pilot episode and it's hard to get, but Scarecrow Video might be able to hook me up.
Oh. And I finally did it. Yes. It's a done deal. After my date, while a bit drunk. No. Flat out drunk. I typed up my letter of withdrawal from medical school. It was actually a good letter I think. Brief and too the point and it's in the mail and on its way.
So, I just feel like I can relate to Charles Bukowski right now. I'm a bit of a pitiful, pathetic drunk, but this is only temporary. I won't let it take over. I'll quit soon. Or slow down at least. But, not tonight.
I'm gonna go to sleep soon, then bike to work at 5:30am again. This time. It's not raining. Cool.
Don't let the bastards get YOU down.
I'll be getting back up real soon. don't worry.
peace, joy and love,
I biked to work in the rain at 5:30 am. I got drenched, changed into dry scrubs and drew a number of patients in the emergency department and epileptic floor. I was humbled when I drew a familiar drunk I see many, many times on the "Ave". I used to think he was a goner. He always looked like he was out of his mind and a bit of vegetable. And when I met him today, sober and hydrated for a change, he actually looked better than I ever imagined. This poor guy is a homeless drunk and he was one of my nicest patients. I found new respect for him. ugh. who am i to judge anyone?
So, I biked to my second job afterwards and put in a good shift. I had the shakes pretty bad and knew it was becasue I've been drinking too much. But, I came home and downed a few beers before going on a blind date. fucking pathetic. okay. maybe i'm being too harsh on myself, but that's moi.
The date was a bummer. She wasn't all that cheerful and trying to get conversation going was like pulling teeth. Dating sucks. It was just lame all around. We had happy hour appetizers and a couple of drinks then I biked home and napped for a couple of hours.
I watched the first 4 episodes of The Sopranos and the first two of Twin Peaks. Damn! I haven't seen the pilot episode and it's hard to get, but Scarecrow Video might be able to hook me up.
Oh. And I finally did it. Yes. It's a done deal. After my date, while a bit drunk. No. Flat out drunk. I typed up my letter of withdrawal from medical school. It was actually a good letter I think. Brief and too the point and it's in the mail and on its way.
So, I just feel like I can relate to Charles Bukowski right now. I'm a bit of a pitiful, pathetic drunk, but this is only temporary. I won't let it take over. I'll quit soon. Or slow down at least. But, not tonight.
I'm gonna go to sleep soon, then bike to work at 5:30am again. This time. It's not raining. Cool.
Don't let the bastards get YOU down.
I'll be getting back up real soon. don't worry.
peace, joy and love,
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But getting a new perspective on the homeless guy was a plus.
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