i feel like shit mentally. i don't know whats going on i am just really down. the decision to go to college was a made really fats because i was homeless and really had no other options. i thought it would be a fresh start for me. but i hate my skool. it's just like high school. lectures upon lectures. i have a hard time comprhending things when there is no discussion. i am not happy. i am not doing anything that i love to do. i have'nt created any art in months. all i do is work a shit job nurse my failing body and shelve who i am while i am at skool so i don't get kicked out. it sucks being somewhere were you cna't be who you really are. i am so lost. i want to tattoo and learn to weld and pinstripe. not work behind a desk. i am doing what everyone expects of me but not what i want to do. i don't know what next 
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chevyblaze87:
I have to agree with the others. You are only gonna be happy by doing what you want to do. I also did the school stuff for about a year at a Jr. college. I realized I had no idea what I was doing there, I found a trade school for what I wanted to do and the rest is history. I'm happy with what I do now.
penn519:
hey, im sorry to hear about all that. i can relate to how you feel. my school is a lot different, and it sucks how crappy yours is, but we have a lot of business students and i just feel terrible for them. theyre going to live their lives in a cubicle working for some big company and become white collar slaves. its really a shame that its so damn hard to just do what you want to do these days. hang in there kid and i hope youre feeling better soon.