ohsoordinary

Are you back from Iraq?

Great.

Try not to go back.

=[ i heart you. was it the boy I met before you left? =[

are you back in town? lunch maybe?

-a

augh. big internet hugs. we can lie to each other but our relationship mishaps. /)_(\ disasters.

i'm sort of glad i'm back too. XD

I hope you feel better soon, please send me a message if you need to vent! **hug**

surviving christmas is the hard part. . . really..... its almost over and then things can improve. and they will. there will be more light. your mind will become clearer, ., all by itself. finances are less important than you think. you ll find a way. step by step you can get all the things you want. ive been quite rich. and ive been quite poor (mostly the latter). theres not as much difference between them as most people think. i know it sounds like a dumb cliche but its in the heart that counts.

e.g.

im preparing a month-long training program now. its a huge job: its dance classes, but also lectures on things like video chip architecture. its also electronics and zen meditation. see its an amazing workshop, it integrates a lot of things. it will be extremely dense and highly structured. now heres the thing.: theres only one student coming! . someone ive never met. just a grad student from england. i call her student X. because my philosophy is that if i do this thing right, , , , it must be universal. it must appeal to the basic things in human nature. because the things that good teaching and learning are based on are universal: things like discipine. focus. master/disciple relationship. respect. patience. not mixing work and play. basic things.

ive never done this before. oh ive taught a lot. just never like this!!! never with this integrated approach. never with an entire syllabus. im pretty excited about it. also scared. its actually a huge challenge. i know it is. especially alone.

so ill earn very little. but maybe i will earn... self confidence. self respect. maybe ill learn myself.

the one we spoke about last time.,
she wasnt my X. my x and i get along great. She was my obsession. call her my "o". see, i have an x and an o. now i can play tick tack toe! i never see either of them. i never see anyone.
(i try to write her something at least every six months, o, but sometimes i chicken out. you never know. you have to do what you can in this life)

glad to see you're fine,stay safe and give news when you can!

<---- this guy cares. Get back safe, my telephone needs a-fixin'

Thanks for the birthday wish! Swanky hotels rock my socks.
Keep in touch, I'm thinking about you as you are headed back.

Hope you'll be fine, it seems you had a good time coing home...

I don't think I would write another either. Thanks for the support.

Thanks!

I missed the set.

I guess that is yet another reason why I haven't looked at sets in MONTHS.

I feel where your coming from. I really myself dont see it as anything but shock. Oh well. Yeah rape is somthing that hits home for me. Nothing like finding someone very dear too, in a car about yoo kill them self after it happen. Its a good thing i'm a quick thinker and fast talker. It still one of the things I dont ever like too think about, and ive seen some fucked up shit. One of the few things i will not forgive myself for not being too protect that person. Even know I couldnt have stop it see. Oh well. So no i dont find the set that " Super".

But then again, the I-net is nothing more then a play ground for most people too be what ever and say what ever. Alot of the "darker" ideas people have in there head, before the Inet had too be kept there, for fear of being looked at. So even if other people felt the same way you did, not like there was anyway of knowing. But now with the I-net we can safely most of the time, Let our thoughts run free and do and be what ever. And send a calling card too other people like us. And now there not just geting looked down on, But people our looking up at them. So in a case like this the good and bad will just add fuel too this persons fire and I fig try too out do them selfs next time. Also with no real life back lash what is there really too stop a person?

The set and everyone views our nothing new. I mean how can anyone who uses the I-net or even come too a site like this really be that suprized at any of this. Hell i thought it was cool too go out of my way too make jokes of anything other people where really hurt by or what not. When I was 16 that is. Anyway too each his own. Everyone has the right too be what ever. Most of the time at the cost of someone else.

On a side note. Most of my time on the I-net is spent on " LOLcats.com" Now that was

haha.
i'd like to Par-take in some of those events.

In six months or so...

hey, thanks for your comment. its strange for me to think that anyone might actually be reading the things i write.
i did the cows for a neighbor who needs it for an installation. maybe ill upload a cow for you to hear.
ps. be well, come back safe.

Possibly. The logistics might be kind of difficult, though.

Hey thanks for the testimonial.
We should talk sometime, I think you are one of the best people on the site, as I comment stalk you a bit.

they say there's a place called Valhalla for folks who think that way. Don't think about Kablooey as a bad thing. Try to think of it as a starter pistol that means you get a chance to try n nail some of those fuckers who do this to you and yours.

I think you may have just made my week