ohmarine

so, i'm back into my manic phase. happy for no reason for like half the day then depressed for.... ok, i'm usually depressed in response to something... but, depressed for the other half of the day. at least i'm breaking even again with the emotions. and i'm not dwelling on the down parts as much, so that's good. i'll tell you what it is. work and video games. at work i've been getting my ass kicked lately. they've been keeping me busy as hell and it's actually been productive. i love that feeling. actually accomplishing something. then in my off time i've been getting back into world of warcraft. i know, i know, it's ruined lives and blah blah blah. but, it gives me an excuse to talk with my friends more and i enjoy the world of it. it's that whole fantasy thing. helps me "feel" like i'm not just sitting in my apartment alone for hours, every single day. even though that's more or less what i'm still doing.
god, i'm rereading this as i'm writing it. i didn't realize just how sad my life is. damn. thought i was doing so much better. fuck it. i still feel good right now.