ohelde

so im in a decent mood.
i guess.
look kinda cute. kinda silly.
and the batteries i bought SUCK.
im attempting to eat before i go to work.
for some reason eating ketchup before smoking makes smoking so much better. yum.
ive been trying to make my rats much more loving and comfortable. but they just want to be poop heads. they get all worked up after about 10 minutes and want to run down my back.
and i really miss my puppy. damned him for choosing an apartment that doesnt allow puppies. and i cant pull the whole 'im depressed i need my dog' thing because im not on the lease because of school.
i cant wait for the next 8 months to go by so i can finally get a two bedroom and have my baby doll with me .
oh, and i havent went to school all week. i just cant get up in the morning. and but ill go the next two days.
grr food get done!
i need more time. a lot more time.
i need time to sit and do nothing, i need time to buy a life coach cd-rom set so i can build my career. i need time to go see my mother because i really miss her. i need time to spend with my baby doll.
maybe i should just take a week off of work.
but if i do that i want to actually go somewhere.
i want to go to texas and finally meet rachael who ive been talking to for 3 years and STILL havent met.
so this weekend something better happen.
something amazing. whos up for it?
<3