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I hate posting blogs right on top of one another, but no one is answering my phone calls and I am sitting here bursting at the seams with glee. And no one is around to listen to me, oh my god...seriously guys. Can't atleast one of the people I'm friends with wake up by 9am? I am up at 6:15am every day. Jon isn't even answering his phone and you would think it would matter to him because this news affects him. Bah. I don't care. I must share anyway.

I got into work this morning and had a whole ton of mail since I've been out since Thursday, one of them was a letter from my director. All I could think was "Great...they've canned me." Nope. It's RAISE time!! And I got a kickass bonus! Sadly, neither of these go into effect until my payday on Oct. 31st, but I got a BONUS!!! Squeeeeee! I've never gotten a bonus in my life, and it's freaking awesome. Like "Here...have $XXXX dollars because you did your job." I ALSO am getting paid on the 31st for participating in the "get healthy and save us insurance money, you assholes" plan that my employer recently did. I may actually be seeing results from my participation. I'm not completely sure because I never weigh myself, but considering the fact that pants that were tight in May are now hanging on my hips...we'll run with it and say that I am getting healthier. Or atleast skinnier, which I know does not equal healthier.

On a side note, I am obscenely distracted today. There are many, many things running through my mind...some are good, some are bad. In the not quite 2 hours I've been here, I've gone to the bathroom once, the kitchen twice, to fill up my water bottle twice, and to check my mail twice.

Things Currently Distracting Me:
- The bonus, hello.
- I KNOW I should be responsible and build up my savings or something, but I think bonus should = tattoo...which one do I want, which one do I want, hmmmm...
- The occassional dirty thought...I always have fun with those. Ok...they might be more than occassional. I create entire dirty scenarios in my head.
- Sam...he's somewhere on the road between Omaha and Ohio, to be back late tonight.
- How to handle Sam being back. Chances are, he has completely forgotten about the hurtful things that transpired. Plus, the argument Jon and I had Sat. night about Sam...and what the hell am I going to do about it. I'd do anything for Jon...but saying goodbye to Sam could break my heart. I think Jon forgets that for a little while we he was on coke and acting retarded and I left him, that Sam (among the other guys I'm friends with) took care of me.
- The new Evanescence video...ooo...I have been waiting for this to be made public and I just watched it approximately 42 times in a row. I am a little in love with Amy Lee, and I'd kill someone to have her hair.
- The insane amount of things I have to do this weekend, and how awesome some of them are going to be. (OK - I'm really distracted by this one...I am creating scenarios in my head again. Haha.)

Because I Love It...(and it makes me a little sad)...