oh_me_ghost

Did you ever see Spirited Away? I think the bath house makes me crazy. I need to get the fuck out, but I stay, stacking blocks of ice, building a little igloo. The more marginalized I feel, the more alive I am. Telling myself to be silent. Do not begin to speak. Do not even think of things to speak. Pass them through this glass...
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"I sneezed and was soon a victim to repeating it, stumbling in every direction for the forms of support and queasy from these unknown oceans of my body"

I guess the moral is that the body has to be acknowledged. It is part of the chain that goes way back, and sometimes it takes a disease or a sudden pain to remind us of where...
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Already disfigured by the force of his horror, and involuntarily grabbing at his words for an armor, I raised myself and tried my voice for standing, asking the ground below me and the valley in my dream, Why did Kafka want his writings to be burned? and by my speaking it grew darker


I like Kafka. He had passion, and his stories seem to involve...
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The Mayan Proletariat Programming Code Version 2.0


one must thank ones enemies,
though one doesnt have to like them.
10 times 10 is 99, and 10 is 9.387

one must hate ones enemies,
though one doesnt have to like them.
10 times 10 is 99, and 10 is 9.341

can you read the code here.
cause there is no need for logic.
none of us...
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I think I like the book Charlotte Gray so much because I am Charlotte Gray. I have this utterly unjustified faith that what I'm searching for exists. Weather it be man, woman, truth, or fiction, I can't decide, only that it exists outside of me, inside of me, underneath my feet, a part of my own substance, like the ever presence of my flesh, or...
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I heard this on a tv yesterday, apparently its wise: The only way to break a bad habit is if its standing in the way of something you want more. But what if that new want is actually just the same want in different clothes? The same little troll with a new hat? Also, the best way to want less is to want more? What...
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Hunger is not intrinsically bad. Not intrinsically good either, but primal. It is manipulated. It is the only thing that can be manipulated.

I think I'm on the cusp of actually growing as a person. Attaining a state that other people have already reached, but for me is new. A piece of the veil is lifted. Things are brighter, kind of hurts the
eyes, but...
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it had to do with praise. i know nothing more. the storm is ended. the pieces of paper are torn and broken - illegible soaking wet. Waiting, like leaves for the soil to cover them up. there is snow in the hills. its the day of the dead. all is good. give my love to shenandoah, whatever that is. peace. debilitating tunnel. "hypoalergenic nightmare."

Movie III

I have a body.
I can prove it
Watch this body being me.

I have a mind too
I can prove it
Watch these words presenting me

I have substance
I can prove it to them
Watch these echos - ripples - lungs

I have _________
I can prove it to you
Its a line drawn in the mud


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there should be...
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You seem to have a titatic level of hope, he said. Don't be steered into icebergs, all right? She demanded. They say there's a peculiar type of cargo wandering about tonight. He added, roughly, with a shove. If it is alive, not producing color is what it does. She stated lovingly, grabbing his camera and smashing it. I know, he lied, while staring at a...
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