oh_me_ghost

Insults. Words off-color.

They were veiled.

They werent definivitely

Directed anywhere.

They danced around the room.

Like billiard balls.

Until somebody stood up and said

Im better than you.

And nobody knew

Who she was.

Or why she felt obligated

To establish who was in the better group

And who was in the gap.

Then again, being true to oneself and all that crap is slightly limiting. Like she said, Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death. So if you say Im this, Im true to this one thing and...
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Some people say that everyone should want to be happy. That if you have the ability to perceive heaven on earth, then you should do it. They think that every problem is an abomination that one should work to solve or overcome. And I would disagree. Theres some problems that offer luscious rewards. Life itself is a problem. The only solution is death. And Im...
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All is well.

Talking has solved all the problems.

I dont admire confidence in people. What I admire is people who have doubts and yet proceed. Cause thats something I can access. Thats something I can relate to and draw strength from. Its strange but interacting with someone who is obviously going through something difficult gives me courage, not confidence. Im knocked out of my...
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Quotes

What upsets me is not that you lied, but that from now on, I can no longer believe you. Friedrich Nietzsche

I will show you fear in a handful of dust. T. S. Eliot

All things must change to something new, to something strange.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.

Him that I love, I wish to be free even from me.
Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Awake, arise,...
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Ive been 2% healed.

Still, I hate it when people I dont know say surprisingly relevant things. Im independent. Id rather be wrong then taught. Im like, Yeah, well uhmm And youre moms a fatass. And uhhh. Dammit. Maybe Im not cut out for reality. Or reality's not cut out for me. What I really want is to love my culture absolutely. And I dont....
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I am wrong.

Writing everyday tends to make me feel raw inside.

Its obviously pointless.

I feel like Im running against a fast-moving current, a current of sewage, that keeps knocking me around.

Life says, stop, you forgot something, go back and try to find it.

The more I write, the less Im sure of anything.

Id like to move to Mexico, immediately. Just to...
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She might have had a point. O Yes. Destroying everything one writes inside a fire. Its me in there No, its the past. Death to everything that was. Life to everything with a pulse and a desire and a voice. Duality isnt so bad. Highs and lows? North and south? In and out? Its all fairly appropriate. Except when its horrible, in which case its...
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I want to save you from yourself

I know you do. Which is why I will never be truthful with you.

Crusatyr (2nd part), by Floater.

Well. You wake the world up
and you got their attention.
Well. Have you really got
something to say, about it?

Cat got your tongue, now has it?
Have you got the drugs, to free it?
Or have you really got
anything to say? I doubt it.

You can bring it all back, somehow!
Yeah and I believe it.
Yeah...
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