oh_me_ghost

the weird smell of finger paints
there was slick paper
there was someone suggesting
ideas about what I
and everyone my size should do
it smells like toxic cake
are you sure its safe
i'm afraid of memories like these
happily surprised when they arise
oh god, I remember that.
but ultimately terrified of
remembering too deep.

horribly pointless guided group
activities, please be
easy to manage and you'll get a red star,
and a gold star if you're perfect
why don't you smile now
and believe what we told you
about life, others, and yourself
if you do that, you'll be doing what you want. ow.
dear stupid child that used to be me
what they're telling you is crap.
throw the pencil box in the trash
drop out of school, run away from home,
and don't look back.