oh_me_ghost

life events are mimicking
internal issues.
this is a bad sign.
feels like being lightly pulled towards
a future i was trying to avoid

i am tempted to ask my friends for help
but anybody that would have the immediate
desire to help
would likely be a
well-meaning yet overly
simplistic person with problems of their own.

there was an episode of Angel
where Lindsay gets rescued from
the senior partners holding dimension
and afterwards he says, turns out they can only undo you
as much as you feel you deserve to be undone.
it was an interesting story, this simple suburban hell, the parable of
someone trapped between moments of perfect happiness and
moments of extreme fear and suffering, like their hearts being ripped out as some
great punishment for nothing.