A person has to follow their instincts. Even if the instincts have been conditioned and the person is a tool because of it. If instincts point one way, and your intellect in another. Then youre fucked if you go with intellect. Irregardless of whether your right.
L * U * C * K.
Is something other people have. And cannot be acquired. Ever. Unless one believes that at any given moment something amazing could happen, attitude, instinct, and dedication to something. Giving up on the ghosts of the past. Giving up on problems that youve convinced yourself you have. Labels. What is possible. How do you know what is impossible. How the fuck do you know.
Well, I dont want to be hurt. What hurt. Your talking in metaphors. You dont want to be inconvenienced by your dreams. Well I learned from my mistakes. No, youre being caged by your mistakes. A person is automatically and without effort grounded by their past. Not by their understanding of the past. Follow your bliss, or fucking die already. God. I mean, youre dieing. Unless your not. Unlucky. What the fuck are you talking about. I dont want to be lucky. I dont deserve to have good things happen to me. Some people say that a subconscious mind exists, and that it does not make distinctions between what a person expects, what a person wants, and what a person fears. And the subconscious mind integrates behind the scense and it does that regardless of how one feels. It will attempt to bring forth whatever type of stuff you tend to focus on. No, it doesnt succeed magically every time, but its best to have it on your side is what Im saying. That is what Im fucking saying. Give luck a chance you cynical bastardo. Notice what you can. Nobody can learn to become lucky, but they can decide to notice the luck they are going to have. You horribly lucky bastard, with all your luck. You disgust everyone around, your so lucky. I dont even know how your so lucky.
Why don't the cynics die already. On the intercom, it says The addictively cynical son of a bitch can go now. And the addictively cynical son of a bitch, says Im scared of expecting anything unbelievably good to happen to me and I believe that I should be as rational as possible, that being rational is um rebelling against the system. And the addictively cynical son of a bitch says, Wait. No, this is so fucking gay. And he is Right!!!!. Yeah!! What a fucking tool. Nobody is lucky or unlucky. Yes, that's the truest sentence in this journal entry. Yet, there are some events that can happen, that don't happen, if a person is always dwelling on the past. Dwelling on the negative is a critical behavior skill and totally comfortable for years and years. But eventually, what the hell. The word luck causes some people to recoil I think. They don't want good things to happen to them suddenly, one after the other. They wouldn't know how to react to that. Their identity has become so intertwined with struggle. And positive change that lasts forever doesn't make sense to them . THe world needs to be punished because of what its done to them, and their punishment unto the world is to never again accept luck or miracles of any kind into their life. Again, what the hell. Sometimes, people have difficult problems that they can't resolve by themselves but there are wild possibilities, things that no one could ever imagine happening, and yet that do happen. Expecting good things to happen is painful in a way, but in such a different way that its almost worth doing just for the sake of variety. Anyway, all is for naught. Nothing is good, and nothing good can ever happen in the present or in the future. Et cetera.
L * U * C * K.
Is something other people have. And cannot be acquired. Ever. Unless one believes that at any given moment something amazing could happen, attitude, instinct, and dedication to something. Giving up on the ghosts of the past. Giving up on problems that youve convinced yourself you have. Labels. What is possible. How do you know what is impossible. How the fuck do you know.
Well, I dont want to be hurt. What hurt. Your talking in metaphors. You dont want to be inconvenienced by your dreams. Well I learned from my mistakes. No, youre being caged by your mistakes. A person is automatically and without effort grounded by their past. Not by their understanding of the past. Follow your bliss, or fucking die already. God. I mean, youre dieing. Unless your not. Unlucky. What the fuck are you talking about. I dont want to be lucky. I dont deserve to have good things happen to me. Some people say that a subconscious mind exists, and that it does not make distinctions between what a person expects, what a person wants, and what a person fears. And the subconscious mind integrates behind the scense and it does that regardless of how one feels. It will attempt to bring forth whatever type of stuff you tend to focus on. No, it doesnt succeed magically every time, but its best to have it on your side is what Im saying. That is what Im fucking saying. Give luck a chance you cynical bastardo. Notice what you can. Nobody can learn to become lucky, but they can decide to notice the luck they are going to have. You horribly lucky bastard, with all your luck. You disgust everyone around, your so lucky. I dont even know how your so lucky.
Why don't the cynics die already. On the intercom, it says The addictively cynical son of a bitch can go now. And the addictively cynical son of a bitch, says Im scared of expecting anything unbelievably good to happen to me and I believe that I should be as rational as possible, that being rational is um rebelling against the system. And the addictively cynical son of a bitch says, Wait. No, this is so fucking gay. And he is Right!!!!. Yeah!! What a fucking tool. Nobody is lucky or unlucky. Yes, that's the truest sentence in this journal entry. Yet, there are some events that can happen, that don't happen, if a person is always dwelling on the past. Dwelling on the negative is a critical behavior skill and totally comfortable for years and years. But eventually, what the hell. The word luck causes some people to recoil I think. They don't want good things to happen to them suddenly, one after the other. They wouldn't know how to react to that. Their identity has become so intertwined with struggle. And positive change that lasts forever doesn't make sense to them . THe world needs to be punished because of what its done to them, and their punishment unto the world is to never again accept luck or miracles of any kind into their life. Again, what the hell. Sometimes, people have difficult problems that they can't resolve by themselves but there are wild possibilities, things that no one could ever imagine happening, and yet that do happen. Expecting good things to happen is painful in a way, but in such a different way that its almost worth doing just for the sake of variety. Anyway, all is for naught. Nothing is good, and nothing good can ever happen in the present or in the future. Et cetera.