oh_me_ghost

My problem is falling into other peoples rationales. And when my brain says yes, and my heart says no, I do the ranting to shake things apart so I can sort through it, and figure out what I believe, what I dont. But sometimes, it stirs up a lot more than is appropriate. And it makes me into an asshole with the cleverness and the cruelty and the slams. Rage, anger, sadness, happiness, all of this energy inside my lungs, all of it wants to be expressed. And when its dark, its very dark, and when its very dark, its not even fair to those that might be a bit empathetic, or in a rough spot emotionally, to just see all that madness whirling around unchecked. I should never watch debates. I swear its pointless, I just scoff at everything they say, and walk away thinking everybodys a fuckass. And yet I know that there's smart people on both sides, but for some reason the ones that always seem to be the cruelest in the debate is the republicans, and they are always out for blood, and I just want to tear into their argument like a rabid dog. But I dont usually, because thats sort of what they want, and probably I couldnt really match their undieing confidence. In most cases, I end up feeling like an asshole, and they end up congratulating themslves for being so knowledable about everything thats happening on this earth. On account of their clairavoyance and their refusal to ever admit a mistake .