oh_me_ghost

The desire to conform in some measure is fine. Its crucial to the existance of a society. Whats bad is sometimes the society itself, or the culture, but there is nothing implicitly wrong with the act of conforming. I think, largely, if a human being is healthy, then there is going to be a significant amount of conformity. But I dont think theres any reason why people should want to be healthy, and perfect, unless they want to be robots, or drones of some sort. If one feels obligated to resist conformity, one might become broken, or scarify their psyche. That is a way to maintain distance from the conformity urge that groups of people spontaneously create. One can try the other route, purifying the psyche, but I think thats a less reliable method that requires study, and really conformity to a basic school of ideas so its not technically conformity-free. The freaks, the mutants, the ill-equiped to live, they dont conform so much, and theres a price that gets paid. People say, going into the forest at a place where there is no path is fantastic. It can be great. It can be utterly not. It will always be different than what had been expected. But its not better to go where there is no path. Its just an option that some people begin starving for because theres some kind of substance tucked away in the act of refusing to obey the norm, whatever that norm might be, that is very warm and moist, fecund like an orgy of aspects of life. Sometimes, the winds of fear come roaring in, and they dont take no for an answer. Unless youve got a lot of humility or an awe-inspiring sense of humor. Im tempted to say, I dont know anything. But, ultimately I dont think theres anything to know. I think even some amazing physist like einstien cant speak truthfully about reality itself, all that can be done is produce a map, that is ultimately nothing but lines on an incomprehensible and infinite whatever the fuck. And so as an alternative, theres action-based experiences, such as doing ones daily life activities, having fun, dancing, and all this stuff. And theres much more actual awareness that comes from that, then there ever could be gotten by studying maps or creating them from scratch. Though writing is technically an activity, unless youre a gifted writer and you also happen to find the 0.1% of people that responds to the way you write, or the what you write, it just, I guess it obscures the reailty, even when its seems to be in a sense correct. Im going to post everyday just because I want to reveal to myself that I am not on the right track. And that I am lieing through my teeth. Pssh. The margins in this website are so fucking large, that is impossible to read entrys like this.