oh_me_ghost

When someone calls you a fuck ass, the correct response is always going to be... "Did you just call me a fuck ass?" This, I learned NOT from watching Donnie Darko, but from careful reading of The Gospel According to Thomas.

Yikes. There's a horrible fire burning over there. I'll go walk right into it and see if I can make it stop. * walks into flames, turns around, walks out of flames slowly * Oh boy, that sucked. I'm burned all over and I'm in a hell of a lot of pain now. I hate it. Hmmmm * stares at flames * My my my....
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This is an excerpt from Charlotte Gray. The first and the last are the best. The rest is the scenery, kind of.

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"It was enough to be with him, to have his company. It was almost enough that he was alive, even if I was not with him."

"And you truly never thought about a future?"

"I never did. Though I admit that may...
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Wrecked and damaged, too many thorns in the hull. Must learn to maneuver in this craft, focus on the goal, instead of the damaging rocks. But look over the railing. The water splashes up, like a welcoming hand against the smashing rocks. Clear flames of blue that fall on the next are hyper-fast, rhythmically pulsed and full of motion. A wave that climbs, lifts itself...
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The line about bringing pain to the surface. Thats a way to put it. He had the cocoa right behind him all the time. So much in it, that didnt quite sit, but made sense because none of it didnt. Intentional imperfection. This living state between people. Slammed the hand, bespoke the pain, and their was recognition. Willingness to suffer. Wanting to be pulled into...
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The enemy is the state-apparatus. It can't be destroyed or even wounded. It has no body. No soul. No desire. Machine motion is what it knows. So what happens to the revolt? They release the steam of it, funnel the popular resentment into far away targets.

Iraq did this, and Iraq did that. Where are the facts sir? "You will have the facts when it...
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I left the rally unhappy. Anti-climactic. Disillusioned. Why can't we vote on war? We need to be able to vote on war. Our representatives shouldn't be able to have "secret" reasons for dropping bombs on peasents heads. They should have to present an immensely convincing case to us with scientific facts and diagrams, all we're getting are little make-it-up as you go lies that are...
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Misplaced how? Not pleased at all. I will embrace positive emotions later. Right now, I'm set on petty. I'm exploring my bitterness and rage, giving it center stage, Emotions are not pure, Frustration. Discontentedness. Unhappiness bout the way things have turned. A little fungus in the brain is probably beneficial to me, cause otherwise how's the shit gonna decompose properly? Pureness is for the birds....
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"The crown of thorns is a symbol of the suffering of the soul within the physical body as well as the victory of the spirit over darkness"

I don't know what to make of that quote. I stare at it on a piece of folded paper on the floor, not actually reading it, but feeling unable to throw it away.

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'Sorrows are our...
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One moment in October is the nectar that I needed. A whole month of it is coming. I'm likely to be crushed.

This is a test of the URL code. I remain hopeful.
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I saw the coolest thing downtown today. I'm on the tri-met going home and I notice all these people outside on the sidewalk, maybe 25 people looking up at the Hilton, and so I look up too expecting maybe some kind of suicide jumper, and see there's a bunch of people way up high on the side of the hilton. And I don't understand it,...
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