Wow, an evening of doing absolutely nothing is awesome! I've played a bit of guitar AND bass! I know, I know, I'm wild haha. I'm getting tired and it's only 9:30...ish. FUCK THAT, I'M STAYIN' UP! No bedtime for me tonight 
. I had a shitty day today...and i forgot i was writing this blog, its been like an hour since i've started lol. youtube videos damn you! altho listening to The Sonics is very entertaining!
haha but anyways, my depression hasn't gone away, and every time i talk to her it just surfaces more. I can't stop talking to her because she is such a close friend. I'm an idiot I know, I know I should stop talking to her because the pain is unnecessary, but what can I say? I'm a fool in love. haha.
But I did manage to meet a new girl at the Reel Big Fish/Streetlight Manifesto show who is, as I have told my friends, "tiny, blonde and adorable". Buuuuuuuut of course she lives like an hour away, and is going to college on Sunday which is 2 hours away. WTF?! WHY CAN'T MY LUCK BE A LITTLE BETTER? Oh yea, because all the girls that I end up falling for just so happen to be the "judges guys based on their looks" girls, which is retarded. SORRY THAT I'M NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER TOOL ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH! I'm a god damn nerd and proud of it! I may be a little big, but I'm quite content with my weight. It's funny though, if the girls that I end up falling for actually take the time out of their "perfect guy" mindset, they will see that I'm actually a good guy. I'm nice, I'm polite as shit, I pretty much speak my mind (which could be good or bad.....more times than not I'm making myself look like an asshole, but apathy kicks in and you know how that goes), I'm funny...or I try to be. Idk, I guess I just have to wait til that "one perfect girl" walks into my life. Although, I can honestly say that I'm kind of nervous about that. I've been doing my own shit for so long that if "she" comes along, I don't know how well I will adjust. Sure I'll go through the "honeymoon phase" where it will be a whole lot of cuddling and time spent with her, but hell, after that is up, will the fights break out? I don't know. From past experiences I've had, I have been (or convinced I have been) the cause of all the fights. I guess I'm easily manipulated. That must be it, I'm too nice of a guy. Do girls actually like being treated like trash? I hate that mindset. To me, All of you women out there hold the real power (and I'm not just saying that because I'm on Suicide GIRLS haha). I really do think that. All the guys I hang with are pretty much the typical "Pig" guys who automatically look at a girl and go "yea, I'd fuck her". Whereas I am usually like, "wow, she is beautiful and I'd love to take her out and treat her like a queen". But apparently, the girls around here would see that and take advantage of me or go for my asshole friends who would "hit it and forget it". Granted a booty call would be so nice right now lol but I don't think I could do it unless the girl I was with had that same mindset....even then, I'd probably fall for her and want to date her and she'd just say something like "oh I don't want a relationship, your cock is all I needed". I WANT TO FUCKING CUDDLE AND TELL HER THAT I WILL BE THERE FOR HER! Goddamn! SEX, SEX, SEX! Society is fucking so sex driven that people don't even know what love is anymore. I can't say that I do know what love is, but I know it doesn't involve your genitals! I will find that girl who just loves to spend time with me, and me with her. I would hold her close and feel depressed when I have to leave her side but when I'm with her, my spirits will be higher than a stoner in a marijuana plantation. Until that time, I'll just vent online about myself.
Now before I get any comments, I'm not looking for any sympathy, I'm just using this to vent, so if anyone reads what I write and wants to say something polite, please do. If what you have to say is rude or along the lines of "everyone has problems, get over it", then I graciously invite you to bend over, take the nearest rod you can find, and go fuck yourself because I don't care that you say I should get over it. I get to vent on here and you don't have to read it. I know I could make this private but I actually like hearing what people have to say if it's not mean, and I take any advice given to the heart even if I don't put it into practice.
So I might post another one of these tomorrow, I might not. I just want to thank this website for allowing me to do this and not be judged, and for being so open about an alternate way of life. This website has become easily my favorite website on the internet just because of how well the members are (from what I have noticed) and for allowing me to keep a blog like this, because it honestly has started to help me calm down and I do feel a little less upset now that I have been able to just ramble on about shit. So again, THANK YOU SUICIDE GIRLS, YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL AND HAVE ALREADY STARTED TO HELP ME THROUGH PROBLEMS (even if you have never said a word to me) Also, the offer to hang out with me is still on the table, just send me a message for my cell number and I will gladly talk to you, but be warned, I do enjoy texting and do it a lot, so if I text you and it gets annoying, just tell me and I will back off for a while, it's just how I am. So goodnight everyone and I will be on tomorrow to look around the site and what-not.
~Dan Polo
. I had a shitty day today...and i forgot i was writing this blog, its been like an hour since i've started lol. youtube videos damn you! altho listening to The Sonics is very entertaining!
haha but anyways, my depression hasn't gone away, and every time i talk to her it just surfaces more. I can't stop talking to her because she is such a close friend. I'm an idiot I know, I know I should stop talking to her because the pain is unnecessary, but what can I say? I'm a fool in love. haha.
But I did manage to meet a new girl at the Reel Big Fish/Streetlight Manifesto show who is, as I have told my friends, "tiny, blonde and adorable". Buuuuuuuut of course she lives like an hour away, and is going to college on Sunday which is 2 hours away. WTF?! WHY CAN'T MY LUCK BE A LITTLE BETTER? Oh yea, because all the girls that I end up falling for just so happen to be the "judges guys based on their looks" girls, which is retarded. SORRY THAT I'M NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER TOOL ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH! I'm a god damn nerd and proud of it! I may be a little big, but I'm quite content with my weight. It's funny though, if the girls that I end up falling for actually take the time out of their "perfect guy" mindset, they will see that I'm actually a good guy. I'm nice, I'm polite as shit, I pretty much speak my mind (which could be good or bad.....more times than not I'm making myself look like an asshole, but apathy kicks in and you know how that goes), I'm funny...or I try to be. Idk, I guess I just have to wait til that "one perfect girl" walks into my life. Although, I can honestly say that I'm kind of nervous about that. I've been doing my own shit for so long that if "she" comes along, I don't know how well I will adjust. Sure I'll go through the "honeymoon phase" where it will be a whole lot of cuddling and time spent with her, but hell, after that is up, will the fights break out? I don't know. From past experiences I've had, I have been (or convinced I have been) the cause of all the fights. I guess I'm easily manipulated. That must be it, I'm too nice of a guy. Do girls actually like being treated like trash? I hate that mindset. To me, All of you women out there hold the real power (and I'm not just saying that because I'm on Suicide GIRLS haha). I really do think that. All the guys I hang with are pretty much the typical "Pig" guys who automatically look at a girl and go "yea, I'd fuck her". Whereas I am usually like, "wow, she is beautiful and I'd love to take her out and treat her like a queen". But apparently, the girls around here would see that and take advantage of me or go for my asshole friends who would "hit it and forget it". Granted a booty call would be so nice right now lol but I don't think I could do it unless the girl I was with had that same mindset....even then, I'd probably fall for her and want to date her and she'd just say something like "oh I don't want a relationship, your cock is all I needed". I WANT TO FUCKING CUDDLE AND TELL HER THAT I WILL BE THERE FOR HER! Goddamn! SEX, SEX, SEX! Society is fucking so sex driven that people don't even know what love is anymore. I can't say that I do know what love is, but I know it doesn't involve your genitals! I will find that girl who just loves to spend time with me, and me with her. I would hold her close and feel depressed when I have to leave her side but when I'm with her, my spirits will be higher than a stoner in a marijuana plantation. Until that time, I'll just vent online about myself.
Now before I get any comments, I'm not looking for any sympathy, I'm just using this to vent, so if anyone reads what I write and wants to say something polite, please do. If what you have to say is rude or along the lines of "everyone has problems, get over it", then I graciously invite you to bend over, take the nearest rod you can find, and go fuck yourself because I don't care that you say I should get over it. I get to vent on here and you don't have to read it. I know I could make this private but I actually like hearing what people have to say if it's not mean, and I take any advice given to the heart even if I don't put it into practice.
So I might post another one of these tomorrow, I might not. I just want to thank this website for allowing me to do this and not be judged, and for being so open about an alternate way of life. This website has become easily my favorite website on the internet just because of how well the members are (from what I have noticed) and for allowing me to keep a blog like this, because it honestly has started to help me calm down and I do feel a little less upset now that I have been able to just ramble on about shit. So again, THANK YOU SUICIDE GIRLS, YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL AND HAVE ALREADY STARTED TO HELP ME THROUGH PROBLEMS (even if you have never said a word to me)
Also, the offer to hang out with me is still on the table, just send me a message for my cell number and I will gladly talk to you, but be warned, I do enjoy texting and do it a lot, so if I text you and it gets annoying, just tell me and I will back off for a while, it's just how I am. So goodnight everyone and I will be on tomorrow to look around the site and what-not.
~Dan Polo