odiumm

It doesn't matter what you do, they'll find a reason to hate you anyway.

My sister may not talk to me again before I leave. This has all started because she hadn't spoken to my Dad regularly enough when she was staying with me over the last week to check in, she is now grounded and has to go home - and she hates me because I had the gall to try and stand up to Dad on her behalf and then try and talk to her about it. How fucking horrible of me. I must be the biggest bitch of a sister ever to walk the Earth because I bothered to try and support her.

I've tried to do as many nice things for / with her in the last few months as I could reasonably afford because I know I may not see her again for a really long time. I know she has problems at home because she's a teenager, and is dealing with a very easily irritated Stepmother - and I know it's going to be harder for her without me around. But she treats me like shit whenever things don't work out exactly as she would have liked and I'm somehow involved.

I try so fucking hard to be there for her. I try so fucking hard to support her, and stand up for her. She never remembers any of it! She only remembers any instance where I've been angry or upset at her, and carries it around as a grudge to use whenever she wants to hurt me some more. I'll never do enough just to be appreciated by her. Just to have her treat me like a human being after all the gifts run out.

I don't know what to fucking do. I just don't know anymore.