odetta

When I was talking to Cam tonight about my roommates I realized how much I don't like living in this house. I go to work early because I feel more comfortable at McLintocks. There is only one person that is usually home at the same times as I am but we have had some issues in the past and all had to sit down to talk. It ended slightly resolved but the tension was definitely still there. I just feel like I'm being fake when I talk to them. It's like when you're a guest at someone else's home, the total comfort isn't there.

All of this has made me realize how much I miss living with my old roomies Michelle and Jason. They are the people I first lived with when I moved from SD. They treated me like family and were absolutely wonderful. I remember one of the first nights I was there Michelle literally tucked me in to bed because we were in my room talking and I was falling asleep. I was so amazed to have just randomly found them on Craigslist. I was so spoiled back then lol.

I guess I'm just trying to figure out if I want to hold out and wait for this contract to end in August. That seems too long from now. Blargh, decisions.

Btw, its still been super cold here and its lovely. I even bought a couple pretty sweaters. I have no where to wear them to but screw it.

Odetta