Thank God for the three day weekend upcoming. Tonight I guess it's the Ugly Oyster for dinner with Kari. Low key, since I have been drinking too much. And for now...again I should be on my way to Philly but I am soooooo putting it off. It's a pain in the ass drive just to meet with some sweaty dude for 15 minutes and pick up my check.
I actually think the best thing that has happened to me in the last few weeks is Justin deciding that he really wants to live here...and (haha) every time I hear him say "I'm on my way home..." and I know it's to my house...I get the best feeling.
Who else can I spend almost 4 hours playing Scrabble and giggling with...entertaining each other and just...being best friends.
On another note, my spirituality (or my perception of it) has been on the back burner for quite some time, and it's bothering me now more than ever. I just mean...writing in [paper] journals, meditating, maintaining that Universal connection...I haven't been too great at disciplining myself lately.
BUT! I leave you with this for the weekend:
DESIDERATA
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you , no doubt the universe is unfolding just as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
I actually think the best thing that has happened to me in the last few weeks is Justin deciding that he really wants to live here...and (haha) every time I hear him say "I'm on my way home..." and I know it's to my house...I get the best feeling.
Who else can I spend almost 4 hours playing Scrabble and giggling with...entertaining each other and just...being best friends.
On another note, my spirituality (or my perception of it) has been on the back burner for quite some time, and it's bothering me now more than ever. I just mean...writing in [paper] journals, meditating, maintaining that Universal connection...I haven't been too great at disciplining myself lately.
BUT! I leave you with this for the weekend:
DESIDERATA
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you , no doubt the universe is unfolding just as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
paper journals are a lot better for your soul than online ones.
hope all continues to go well