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Had to refrain from smoking weed on my b-day because I had some sort of one day sore throat. It's okay now. I'm pretty happy with my white blood cells, good job!

A new friend stood me up twice lately. Just acquaintances but we play music and stuff and hang out at shows. I felt like I was stood up on a date. Like, just say you don't want do go, it doesn't matter to me. But she seems so interested in the things I offer up as things to do, and then the phone calls go back and forth as to when to retrieve her and all that, and then I get to her house, and she's not even there! Plus the fact the very day before that I had asked her to go out with my other friends and I and she did the same thing, except that time she runs outside to tell me "someone is coming to pick something up." That can only sound like a drug deal to me. Plus, cocaine would be a fitting resolution to this unsolved mystery. Why would you just dump someone's idea that you already agreed to, unless theres a big fat 8-ball or some shit involved in the deal?

She has admitted she's been on heavy drugs and has a drug problem, but why lie? Because she knows that people who aren't doing lame ass cocaine would try to persuade her to quit? Probably. The moral of the story is that, there are cool people out there, and nobody has to be forced to hang out with anyone. Same to her tho, she doesn't have to be obligated to hang out with me. But at the same time, if that is the case, then I should say something eventually?

I had a friend in High School that did so much cocaine (*he was much older) that his heart literally 'blew up' and he had to get plastic knobs put in his heart so his blood could flow in the correct arteries. So.. maybe I'll just slip that into a convo without incriminating her on anything. Sounds like a plan.

Sorry, I don't know why I'm rambling all this here but I just didn't have much else to say and this seemed interesting.

Time to lay down now.



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*these are chocolate creations! (not mine-but I wish they were)