Hello.
I am procrastinating on my brother's Christmas present. Argh. It is literally exactly half-done. But I'm in a good mood and enjoying the day.
I've been busy, and not just in the "I got my hair done" kind of way. I officially have three jobs now, in addition to the important things I do for myself and don't get paid for. Working, crocheting, getting all wrapped up in my love life (in a good way). I need to spin more. I need to KEEP IN TOUCH, which I have not been doing. I don't even read the news. How I can expect myself to make theatre when I don't know where my time is? Argh.
But I'm going home for two and a half weeks at Christmas. That's exciting. I haven't seen my mom or brother since this past February or my dad since August. I have a brand new baby cousin who might make an appearance. Perhaps more travel in the winter, but my January and February are looking a lot fuller than I'd anticipated, now that I have three cash jobs instead of just one.
I've been playing a lot of solitaire recently--iPod, not cards--on the subway, and I think about how it's a good example of choices in life. I heartily encourage teaching it to children, and if I have quiet moments in all the holiday craziness with any of my elementary-age relations I might just do a little instructing. We so rarely have complete information. We trade freedom for advancement. We get stuck and have to start over. And it rings true with me now because I'm trading money for flexibility. I can't travel as much as I want because I have to make my rent. And two of these jobs are giving me good contacts--I don't want to miss out. I don't want them to decide someone else could do that, or they don't need me after all. I'm afraid of losing out on future benefits, not just the ones I know I'm trading but the ones like those I've already unexpectedly received. Oh life, oh cards.
How can I get upstate for bunny time in the middle of all this? Or to visit my amazing friends, too often on the periphery? What about that beach getaway?
Is it that I want money or time for Christmas? Is it the same thing? I need to improve the exchange rate on that.
I am procrastinating on my brother's Christmas present. Argh. It is literally exactly half-done. But I'm in a good mood and enjoying the day.
I've been busy, and not just in the "I got my hair done" kind of way. I officially have three jobs now, in addition to the important things I do for myself and don't get paid for. Working, crocheting, getting all wrapped up in my love life (in a good way). I need to spin more. I need to KEEP IN TOUCH, which I have not been doing. I don't even read the news. How I can expect myself to make theatre when I don't know where my time is? Argh.
But I'm going home for two and a half weeks at Christmas. That's exciting. I haven't seen my mom or brother since this past February or my dad since August. I have a brand new baby cousin who might make an appearance. Perhaps more travel in the winter, but my January and February are looking a lot fuller than I'd anticipated, now that I have three cash jobs instead of just one.
I've been playing a lot of solitaire recently--iPod, not cards--on the subway, and I think about how it's a good example of choices in life. I heartily encourage teaching it to children, and if I have quiet moments in all the holiday craziness with any of my elementary-age relations I might just do a little instructing. We so rarely have complete information. We trade freedom for advancement. We get stuck and have to start over. And it rings true with me now because I'm trading money for flexibility. I can't travel as much as I want because I have to make my rent. And two of these jobs are giving me good contacts--I don't want to miss out. I don't want them to decide someone else could do that, or they don't need me after all. I'm afraid of losing out on future benefits, not just the ones I know I'm trading but the ones like those I've already unexpectedly received. Oh life, oh cards.
How can I get upstate for bunny time in the middle of all this? Or to visit my amazing friends, too often on the periphery? What about that beach getaway?
Is it that I want money or time for Christmas? Is it the same thing? I need to improve the exchange rate on that.
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lightmeetsdark:
It was great meeting you, too! I can definitely say that you are all awesome people, and I'm so glad that I finally made it out to an event. I'm loving my present, by the way! Hope you had/have a safe trip back to NY! 
downedcity:
nice seeing you too. have a good trip back.