Love me. Dig me. Because I hate myself.
Sitting here, late at night. Wide awake. Listening to beautiful music. Thinking about a beatiful, wonderful girl. wishing she was here. Wishing I could put my arms around her. Wishing that I could hold her, kiss her. Wishing I could fall asleep with her next to me. Damning this distance between us.
faeryrae:
awww you are so sweet. this is one lucky girl. 
Possibly maybe....
Probably love....
Probably love....
I have a headache 
faeryrae:
i wish i could make you feel better. a nice back rub and some lovin!
octoberseven:
awww. thank's baby.
Rae is an incredible, sweet, beautiful, awesome girl. 
faeryrae:
AM NOT! LOL! 
octoberseven:
Are too.
faeryrae:
uh oh what did i do?
Talked on the phone for a couple of hours to the most wonderful girl tonight.
faeryrae:
damn this girl is super lucky. lol i am so silly. but seriously i talked on the phone for a couple of hours to the most wonderful guy tonight.
Last night I had the most wonderful chat with the most wonderful girl.
faeryrae:
gee i wonder who that girl could have been? well whoever she is she is damn lucky. oh and guess what? last night i had the most wonderful chat with the most wonderful guy.
I need to get out. I need to go somewhere. I need to do something. I don't know, I just need some kind of change.
faeryrae:
you know you can come here and visit me. bad thing is i cant get into a few clubs and bars damn not being 21. less than 6 months........less than 6 months.......
well we cant chat if i dont know what instant messanger services you have. i will email you the ones i have and my screen names. i am feeling the same way right now as you describe in your entry. talk to you later babe.
well we cant chat if i dont know what instant messanger services you have. i will email you the ones i have and my screen names. i am feeling the same way right now as you describe in your entry. talk to you later babe.
Broke up with my psuedo-girlfriend tonight. Oh well. I'm not really bothered by it.
faeryrae:
sorry to hear about your break up and such. i read your entry before this one. my parents are the same way with the fighting and the pot. been together since they were 15. i have major mental illnesses since i was 13. i seem to understand what you are saying. i cant say in words what though. yeah today sucked but at least it wasnt a real gun. you need to come up here and visit me in milwaukee. you and i have the same fantasy.....