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octoberallover

Lubbock, Texas

Member Since 2003

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Saturday Apr 30, 2005

Apr 30, 2005
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I'm laboring under the beleif that a job is on the way and good times are coming back.....but I just don't know. I keep thinking the band is getting better... but itsn't it stupid to be in a band? Isn't that the perennial pipe dream of people my age.... at least I don't anticipate success.... not on the scale some people crave it.... there are alot of bands I like that never "made it" per se... but I still love them.... maybe I don't care what kind of minority loves me as long as someone does. I'm really scared... and I don't know who to talk to.....and fear has a way of freezing you..... if I do something then maybe something will work out....

self pitying probably isn't improving matters.....


but on the upside I've been downloading 60s french pop all day... France Gall, Francoise Hardy.... stuff like that.... I can at least feel pretty swanky as I watch most other aspects of my head south


yeah my last post was stupid.... what can I say?.. I was feeling unattractive.... can you say its never happened to you?


my profile picture is way lame.... but regrettably thats how I actually look.... no excuses here
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I LOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU! wink

you usually have your eyes closed?
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