octagon

So sleepy...it's almost one. There are no more stimulants left. My brain doesn't want to think about dream theory anymore. It wants It had enough with all the Chinese Religions....it is fried.....but after today, one more paper, a group project even, and that 's all I have to do next week....so little stress.

I occasionally wonder what my life would be like if I went to a school where they taught me practical skills. I guess, though learning to push myslef to write two papers in one night and one day might be practical for something....

It will prepare me for when I have a shitty job somewhere and really don't want to work, but have to. Actually, I would probably get fired from a job that made me force myself to work this much. I'm only doing it cause the subject matter is interesting. I don't think there are many professions that I would push myself this hard for. I'm kind of hoping that by working so much now, I won't have to as much in the future. Or, I will, but it will be easier because of this, but really, what kind of life am I setting myself up for?

Hmm...I better stop before this digresses into a full blown existential crisis.