The idea of the simulacrum. Reality as a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy etc. with no referent. Images of ideology serving as the foundation for reality. Existence in the hyperreal=Existence in a late capitalist society. The boundaies between real and imaginary, true and false permeated from both sides to where binary thought breaks down(? need to finsih the book before...
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Sometimes I really hate the internet.
cubistic:
And sometimes I really hate me, but this time at least I have a reason.
So, getting little sleep and having lots of sex makes me feel very stoned. I've been walking around in a daze all day, not really knowing what's going on, and I can't stay awake to study. Eating a lot isn't helping either.
I hope that all goes well with me sleeping with him again. I'm trying really hard not to think about it past the...
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I hope that all goes well with me sleeping with him again. I'm trying really hard not to think about it past the...
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This weekend is nice. I had a really fun night last night. I just drank a little with good friends, but had a really great converstion. I was thinking about it all day. I really love those nights. Oh, that and I had lots of really good sex. More than 24 hours later and I'm still in a good mood. *sigh* 
This is the best...
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So much work, so little sleep. I"m in the middle of three weeks of hell, and sitting here, writing and eating somewhat cold soup is a much more pleasant activity than it would be otherwise. I have to work til 3 this morning, but I had too much caffeine to take a nap. Maybe I'll be able to take one in a few hours.
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mei:
be careful about thinking like that. it's what i did, and it got me in trouble. thinking that maybe what you see in the movies is too good to be true, that all you can hope for is comfort, etc, leads one to stay in something that isn't quite right, for whatever reason.
or maybe, it's the perfectly right way to think. i don't know. i don't know about anything anymore. my advice about relationships has to be great considering my current state.
or maybe, it's the perfectly right way to think. i don't know. i don't know about anything anymore. my advice about relationships has to be great considering my current state.
littledeadkid:
get some sleep!!!
I can be an amazingly horrible person sometimes. For some reason when I am away from ex, I think he is amazing and can't figure out why I am letting him go. And then when i see him, I am reminded of how horrible we can be for each other. And when I can't resolve the two, bad things happen. I say things I wish...
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littledeadkid:
yea that shit super sucks when ur not around that person and all u think about is the good then when u 2 are toghether its all fucked up and u see y ur not together no more so i do feel whut u mean
mei:
to be honest, i think that the only way to measure a relationship after its possible termination is someone else. if'n you can find another person in a reasonable amount of time that makes you happy or happier, maybe it wasn't meant to be. if you try, and other people just don't measure up, maybe you found the best fish in the sea.
which is a pain, because that does involve meeting and dating other people, which is often complicated and messy.
oh, and by the way, i am feeling EXACTLY the same things right now. i think it s all about lonliness. when he is there, you are comforted and not-lonely enough to start seeing other parts of life, like how he might not be perfect for you. but when he is gone, the lonliness takes over and all you want is him, here, now, to make you un-lonely. at least that's how it works with me, anyway.
which is a pain, because that does involve meeting and dating other people, which is often complicated and messy.
oh, and by the way, i am feeling EXACTLY the same things right now. i think it s all about lonliness. when he is there, you are comforted and not-lonely enough to start seeing other parts of life, like how he might not be perfect for you. but when he is gone, the lonliness takes over and all you want is him, here, now, to make you un-lonely. at least that's how it works with me, anyway.
Class made me cry today. It was the first time that that has happened since I've been in college. I don't know why we're learnimg quatum in a supposedly easy physics class. It's interesting until we have to solve problems. Then I feel the weight of crushing stupidity because I don't understand something that most peole who actually know how to do math don't really...
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I spent the day in bed today. I haven't been sleeping well this weekend, so just brought my comuter to bed and stayed there. And now it is time for sleep. Good night computer land.
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littledeadkid:
sleep is alwasy good!!
agentc:
I used to sleep with my laptop after an ex dumped me and moved out. At least a laptop is always warm.
Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. I wish I were asleep. I was not very smart today. I have to work until 3am tomorrow and try to get some work done in the afternoon, but that won'r happen if I'm asleep then. or just still not sleeping. bah. perhaps this is a blessing in disguise. I don't think 20 out of 24 hours of doing homework is healthy....
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Hello computer land. I am tired. I finally got a scanner and me and my drawings in the same room at the same time. So, they are up. Unfortunately, they are all pretty small.
I stayed up all night last night. not even doing anything fun. My sister is worried that I work too much. I think she might be right.
I stayed up all night last night. not even doing anything fun. My sister is worried that I work too much. I think she might be right.
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littledeadkid:
super cool pictures and whut do u do?
littledeadkid:
dont be skerd thats no fun!
So, I ended it. Two years and he and I are no more. I've been walking around in a daze all day. Suddenly the school work that is my life seems trivial. I wonder if it was only ever important because there were things I wanted to avoid. I feel very dramatic today. I wish I was a poet so I could write tortured poetry...
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zombieshark:
the problem is getting the times that are worth existing, to come AFTER the times that are not. sadly, it usually works the opposite, thereby rendering the good time, worthless. then i get raging drunk, say things i shouldn't, and pass out in the shower for 2 hours.. bleeargh.
*is waiting to see your drawingses* well?? where are they?
*is waiting to see your drawingses* well?? where are they?
littledeadkid:
if i new more on ur situation id give my 2cents but i dont no so im sorry
Interesting project on Japan and the US, if my guess that you speak in a modern context is right, I see your angle. Im thinking of exploring the east/west divide (or transient unity as your paper may suggest) through looking at canonised paintings from both China and Italy in the late Ming dynasty (when trade started to flow). This leads to hilarious consequences as the two chums (sometimes bitter enemies) struggle to adapt each others perspective systems and debate ensues. Oscar: Best Adapted Screenplay .. thank you
Hmmm i can win an Oscar but i can't make the text fill the box, its the little things ...
[Edited on Dec 09, 2003 11:09AM]