Over the last year I've become a person I really don't like...bitter, sexist...manipulative...mostly towards women.
Lets just say I get the sex, and too often for it to mean much.. I finally find a girl who I want to settle down with, and its really hard to start caring again.
Same old story, I was hurt, hurt a lot, and hurt hard, left behind, let a lady walk all over me...and I get revenge on the rest of the sex by using them, only to regret doing it when the right girl comes around. My life is a bad romance novel I know. I'm doing my best to show this girl that I really want her, but what I'm doing isn't enough, obviously, because I haven't solidified it at all.
I told her I would give up my polygomy for her, I would give up all the others for her. I know to most, that doesn't say much, but its really hard for me to say no to a pretty face that I know I would get along with, and fuck like bunnies with.
Can I do that in the future, once I'm commited after doing it for 3 years? What can I do to stop the testosterone? ARRRG!
another pick a la moi
Lets just say I get the sex, and too often for it to mean much.. I finally find a girl who I want to settle down with, and its really hard to start caring again.
Same old story, I was hurt, hurt a lot, and hurt hard, left behind, let a lady walk all over me...and I get revenge on the rest of the sex by using them, only to regret doing it when the right girl comes around. My life is a bad romance novel I know. I'm doing my best to show this girl that I really want her, but what I'm doing isn't enough, obviously, because I haven't solidified it at all.
I told her I would give up my polygomy for her, I would give up all the others for her. I know to most, that doesn't say much, but its really hard for me to say no to a pretty face that I know I would get along with, and fuck like bunnies with.
Can I do that in the future, once I'm commited after doing it for 3 years? What can I do to stop the testosterone? ARRRG!
another pick a la moi
I know you pretty well so I get how the above is tough for you. Life is full of those shitty sacrifices that no matter what you do you're going to be sacrificing something.
Maybe ask her what you can do to prove yourself. For her it might be something like always being available or getting back to her right away if you're at work or something like that.
Anyway, I hope it all works out for you. I'm gonna give you a ring later to see if you know your friday schedual yet or not. And I'll tell you where and how to get to karaoke which is always on mondays.
Chin up, hopefully it all work out.